saturday

I was about ready to leave work last night when
the night nurse on the unit I recently quit, started crying.
She was overwhelmed by all that needed to be done.....and she felt like the day shift nurse didn't do his share of  work.
The day shift nurse worked his ass off non-stop for 12 straight hours. He is also overwhelmed and left saying he planned on quitting.
It's just the way it is............most days you deal with it..................but then every once in awhile for whatever reason, probably just because you're human........you feel like you just can't do it all......it's  too much and you don't know where to begin..............the night nurse looked at me as she cried and said "what should I do first? Where do I begin?"..................I understood where she was coming from......and I felt for her..............I had her take one long deep breath.........and reassured her she would get through the night.....................and then I told her where to start.................... away she went to do the first thing I put on her list....................I organized and cleaned up her desk, did the paper work on her new admission.............and left having put in 31 hours of work in 2days.
I drove home with my window opened, the cool air against my face........and I listened to my favorite radio station.
I thought about how I will probably quit my job.
The D.O.N. is putting me back on the unit I had begged to be taken off of.......the unit I'd just helped the night nurse with...........not only is she putting me back on that unit, but she is also having me take half of another unit.
It can't be done.
I love a great challenge. Really I do...............................but what they want me to do isn't doable.