we spent the last week at the ocean.
i love the ocean. i love the beach.
the day we left for the ocean i was tearful/emotional.....
it would be my first birthday without my mom.
part of me worried that mom would look
for me on my birthday........but wouldn't know where to find me
if i was in another state........so that worried me and made my heart ache.....
on our drive home boyfriend fell asleep while driving. i slapped his arm to wake him.............well that pissed him off...................he denied sleeping even though he was snoring and his eyes were closed.....not to mention we were headed across lanes............he refused to let me take over the driving...................................luckily we were close to an airport. i had him drop me and daughter off and i rented a car....................i couldn't continue on in the car with him...........he fell asleep a couple years ago while driving us home from that vacation...we ended up going off the road......i just couldn't risk daughter or me getting hurt/killed in that car.............i wanted him to be safe too.................but he wouldn't let me take over.................................so he's not speaking to me.........i don't get it................seriously i don't..........................
i cooked lunch for my family today.,,,,including dad. we ate outside on the deck................daughters boyfriend was here................its the first time dad has met him......................so in true form dad told about a hundred jokes..................funny jokes.........................daughters boyfriend was cracking up..........it was cute.
i bought a really pretty corsage this morning for mom...................took it to place on her grave......................they finally engraved her date of death on her headstone...............it was a little shocking for me to see it...............it was sad really...........
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i'll be thinking about you, billy, when you have your hernia surgery. you will be fine!
i think Helen is pretty. she has young skin.
I hope my operation is soon, I'm tired of dealing with messed up guts dragging me down.
I love the ocean when the weather is nice, even watching storms as long as they don't last all the time I'm there.
Shack up wouldn't let you drive? That's fucked up, smack that stupid shit for me. Wise of you to get out of the car.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!
Headstone... Pfft, I'm having my remains scattered at Tom Creek.
Cindy told me she prays for me, I can't figure out who the fuck she is praying to. I pitch shit on her about her god, she is always in such pain that I told her that her god must be pissed at her but she thinks her fucking god is perfect.
*rolls eyes*
Bill says it your birthday..HAPPY BIRTHDAY
thank you dora!
Headstone: LEAVE ME ALONE, I'M SLEEPING.
Helen had written it in one of her many scrap books.
I didn't know her, but I liked her.....liked hearing your stories about her......
She's very pretty in both of the pictures you've posted..
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