friday

Boyfriend and I went to our favorite steak house on new years eve.

I had calamari and steak. he had steak. the calamari was great. the salad was great. the steak was too greasy. we had a nice time.
daughter called me at1AM to pick her and a friend up. they had drinks and she did not want to drive. I'm grateful she didn't drink and drive.
we picked her car up yesterday.

new years day my neighbor wrecked into my new car. i had just backed out of my driveway. i guess he didn't see me cause he backed out of his driveway straight into my side panel. it's just a little ding and some scraped paint. it's really not a big deal. I'd leave it be if it wasn't a new car.
i hope this is not indicative of  what the new year holds for me!

we buried my mom a year ago today.
i miss her.
i find myself  bringing her up
in conversations. not her death, but her.
i like talking about her. i like remembering
out loud about her.
on Dec 30, the one year anniversary of her passing i asked her "Mom, if you have anything to
say to me say it to me through music." i turned on the radio and a  man was singing "if i could be the fire in your firefly, the cool in the rain, the spark in your eye. the faith in your heart that sets you free, then I'd be what you mean to me."
silly maybe......one of the games you might play when you want so badly to talk to a loved one that has passed. i asked her again, on my drive to pick up daughter after the new years eve celebration  to talk to me. i turned on the radio and the exact same line from the same song played.
i choose to believe it was more than coincidence.

i called dad on the anniversary of moms death.
it's been a tough year for him.
he told me about their first Christmas together 61 years ago.
he was laughing and crying as he told me the story.
he likes remembering too..........i like hearing stories about mom that I haven't heard before.

my heart aches for dad.......and i wish i could take away his pain.

we have more than several confirmed cases of the flu at my work. patients and employees are sick.
we've been working short staffed when we really need a little extra staff. it's been crazy busy!