friday

boyfriend had a pet scan wed.
we went to see the oncologist today.
the oncologist said there is no evidence
of cancer in boyfriends lungs.... just some inflammation from the radiation.
so he will have a ct scan in 3 months, a pet scan 3 months after that, and if they remain
clear then he will only have to have a pet scan once a year..........
 we are relieved. it's what we were hoping for.......actually we were just hoping that the cancer didn't grow or go to some other part of boyfriends body...........so the news was  better than we dared to hope for.....
 i'm happy about the results but i don't really feel celebratory. i just feel tired..........and like the cancer is  waiting for us to let down our guard before it rears it's cruel ugly head again.

i folded some towels today,and i changed the beds.
i heated up some lasagna that we had for supper yesterday for supper today.
it wasn't very good yesterday.........was no better today.

i'm a bummer and i know it.
my throats a little sore.
maybe i'm getting sick.