monday

I worked a 12 hour shift yesterday.
I only had 14 patients. I usually have closer to 24.
So it was a low stress, easy to manage day.
It does me good when I work. It energizes me!

I've been having some pretty bad muscle spasms
mostly in my back when I work a shift. This time
before work, boyfriend rubbed my upper back (that's where I hurt)
with Ben Gay and I took a prescription anti inflammatory the night before and morning
of my shift. I also did some stretching.
It helped.
I had very little discomfort last night.

The plan today is to clean out my hallway closet and my bedroom closet.
I also want to hang a few pictures.
Then all I have left to do to get the house ready for the holidays is wash the living room curtains, and scrub the wood work
in the bathroom.

saturday

Weeping, my cat who went missing yesterday showed up on the front porch at  4 AM.
I'm so happy she is home!

friday

I filled out the notice sent to me for me to serve jury duty. I sent it back with  a request to have my service postponed for another 2 years so that I can continue to provide assistance to boyfriend. I didn't send any supporting paper work because the paper work had to be back to them in five days. That time frame did not allow me the time I would need to get papers from the doctors. So we shall see.

I ran into my brother-in-law today at the grocery store. I asked him to take a look at my water heater . The cap was off and the duct work was too long to attach to the cap then place  the cap where it's supposed to be............he came over and rearranged a small piece of duct work with an even smaller piece allowing the cap to be where it's supposed to be................now it's fixed and I can stop worrying about it.
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Weeping my Siamese cat has been missing for a few hours. Some of the time she naps in my closet or on a shelf where I keep the sleeping bags in the garage. I checked both places. She's not there. I hope she's OK.

tuesday

Mostly I've been cleaning and organizing the house.
I cleaned the living and dining room windows yesterday. I also had the carpets cleaned and then put away all the stuff I had stacked on the couch and on the beds. And I cleaned off the dining room table. It was a mess!
I still have a few drawers and a closet to clean/organize.

They're going to install the dishwasher and stove today.
After they leave I plan on patching some areas damaged from where they removed the old counter top, and I need to clean the kitchen windows.

We only had a few trick or treaters last evening. My favorite was Neil, the little boy from across the street. He was dressed as Darth Vader I think. He's a tiny little fellow. I think he's five years old but very petite like his dad so he looks much younger. He's polite and so sweet. I gave to him lots of extra candy.

My tomato plant continues to give me tomatoes. I picked 20 yesterday and have about 50 more on the plant. I also have a nice bell pepper growing.

thursday

I finally sanded and painted the kitchen wall. It looks good! Feels good to have the job done!
I gave away my 1950's kitchen table and chairs. It was my sister's mother-in-laws table. I've used it for several years.
 I've rearranged my kitchen so I no longer have room for it. I offered it to my neighbors friend. She had been homeless for the most part for the past 6 months but recently got herself an apartment. She was thrilled to have it!
Today the plumber is coming to add a new water shut off valve and something else that I really am not sure about..........it's boyfriends doing.....................................but after the plumber leaves and after I finish my continuing education to re new my nursing license we are going to take a ride. I want to see the trees at Saint Ann's convent. They're beautiful in the fall!

tuesday

I scheduled to have my carpets and air ducts cleaned, called Lowes to tell them the plumber has never called to schedule installation of my dish washer and stove, and went to the doctor today for a routine visit.
I got a flu shot today,and a tetanus, diphtheria, pertussis vaccine. I feel really tired, and I have a headache from the 2nd vaccine. I just want to crawl under my warm blankets and sleep. Maybe I'll get the kitchen wall sanded and painted tomorrow!

monday

I think boyfriend broke the ice maker  on the new refrigerator while trying to fix it. :O) The repairman is coming to fix it today.
I just made some french toast.
I can't get good french toast in a restaurant.  It's  always under cooked, the batter is all wrong,  and it usually has too much cinnamon.
Refrigerator man just called. He had to reschedule because his guy called off work. I wish I was a handy person!

I might sand and then paint the kitchen wall today. I just don't know!

So Abraham was killed last night on the season premiere of The Walking Dead. "Suck my nuts" were his last words just after and before Negan crushed his skull with a barb wired wrapped baseball bat...................it was hard to watch..........daughter screamed when Glenn was killed. It was all a little too violent for my taste!

saturday

We went to see the oncologist  yesterday.
Our insurance did not approve the Opdivo.
They say there is no documentation to support its effectiveness
in non metastatic cancer, and they also said no because we do not yet know if
the radiation was effective. It's 24,000 bucks for one dose of the Opdivo. He would need a dose every 2 or 3 weeks forever I guess. Who can pay that out of pocket?
So now it's kind of a waiting game.........waiting for a pet scan to be done in 7 weeks to see if the radiation did its job, if not then waiting for the cancer to metastasize. Chemo is an option if the cancer is still there but boyfriend told the doctor absolutely not.\\

I may or may not sand and paint the kitchen wall
today.

Friday

 I like this little tree

that's in the old part of the cemetery. It reminds me of an old hump back witch, I'm using it on my header for the month of October, my nod to Halloween. :O)

thursday

We had bad storms here last evening.  The lightening looked like a fireworks show. It was great. We had hail the size of soft balls and strong winds.
 Mr. Bojangles is afraid of storms with thunder.So he hid under the bed for most of the evening.I felt sorry for him!
We've had cold rain and a breeze most of today too, and some thunder. Boyfriend and I stayed in the bed and watched TV most of the day.
 We see the oncologist tomorrow. They have him scheduled for 45 minutes with the doctor and then a 2 hour appointment in the chemotherapy room. I suspect they will educate us about Opdivo and give boyfriend his first dose. But I'm not sure.

monday

We have a dental appointment today.
Maybe after the appointment I will sand and paint the kitchen wall. :O) Maybe!

Called Lowe's this morning re the install of my new range and dishwasher. The coordinator of my project is incompetent. She has never returned a call, ever. I talked to another person today and have everything scheduled now..........................................................I made my purchase late August, early September and it's just now been scheduled for delivery/installation no thanks to "Ladonna."

My neighbor who lives up the street from me always has the best garbage. I got a really cute dresser from her garbage once, cleaned, painted it and sister bear used it for most of her childhood. I also got the really adorable wood bench with cast iron animal cut outs. They cleaned out their garage/basement yesterday. They have a pretty nice stair climber on the curb and several nice sheets of  dry wall. They also have a childs bike  and a chair. I don't need any of it, and don't want to store any of it because I have enough stuff in my basement and garage. I do wish someone would come and get that bike. There's nothing wrong with it!

sunday

We had a wonderful night last night, boyfriend and I.
We built a fire in the backyard fire pit.
 The weather was perfectly cool and the sky was clear.
 Mostly we just sat together
under the stars, holding hands and talking.
The kitties were at our side ( our Weeping and daughters Co-Co) except for Mr. Bojangles
who was in my bed on my pillow sleeping. (He's so spoiled.)
It was nice.
I love him, boyfriend.
He talks about dying and  about my life
after his death.
Mostly he talks about how grateful
he is for the life he has and has had.
I don't like to think about life without him.
It makes me feel incredibly sad, and afraid.
I try my best to push those feelings aside and think I
will deal with them when I have to.
For now I just try to be grateful, and enjoy the company
of my love, my best friend.

It's beautiful again outside today. Clear and sunny skies with a slight breeze.
I need to weed the garden I made for my mom in my backyard, and I have a few other chores in the yard. I also have a bunch of tulip bulbs to bury. It might still be too early. I'll have to read the instructions on the bag.

 Dad just called about a open house close by but in another city. Dad says it has a very pretty view from the back of the house that over looks Cincinnati skylight. I might run over to see it.

saturday

I gave boyfriend a hair cut and trimmed his eyebrows. It's easy to cut his hair. Mostly I just shave his head. It looks good!
Boyfriend ripped a toenail off the other night. We aren't sure how. We noticed a large amount of blood on the floor next to his bed and a bloody footprint from his bed to the front porch. Investigated and found his nail was gone. So I've been nursing that for him. It looks wicked but better today than yesterday! Our house looked like a crime scene!
Also, boyfriend began coughing up blood yesterday. He has never had this happen before along this road of lung cancer. Our hope is that it's due to the irritation from the radiation treatments. He will see the oncologist this coming week.
I changed the bed sheets today, and have a load of laundry in the dryer and in the washer. My goal is to get the kitchen wall sanded and painted. We shall see.

Donald Trump grosses me out. I think he's an idiot incapable of seeing the value of women other than for his own sexual desires. He's disgusting. He's a pig.I believe he thinks all men think the same way he does. Many do I'm sure, especially men from his generation, and pimps.
 He should not be president.

Got up early this morning and had some pumpkin spice coffee on the front porch while I talked on the phone with my BFF work friend. It was nice catching up with her!
I miss the routine of going to work each work day.

I'm supposed to report to jury duty in Dec. I think and serve Jan. through March. I was excused for a year last year due to boyfriends illness. It's something I've always wanted to do, but not so much now. I'm hoping they will excuse me again.

wednesday

SO Lowe's delivered my new refrigerator doors today, and they hung them. They were a day early, again. It's annoying but not that a big of a deal.

We went to the grocery today.
We bought corn beef brisket. I'm going to cook it then make Rubens tomorrow.

I also bought a cute autumn table cloth and 2 books. "The Girl On The Train" by Paula Hawkins is one of the books. I've been seeing previews to the movie and it looks good but I know I will like the book better. So I will read it before I watch the movie. I also bought "All Dressed In White" by Mary Higgins Clark. I like her books. They're easy reads and entertaining.

I'm procrastinating when it comes to painting the part of the kitchen that needs painted. I figure I'll get to it when my back is against the wall.

Sunday

We had a super nice time last night at oldest son's house. He has the sweetest dog I've ever met. The dog loves boyfriend. Sat in front of him, at his feet almost the whole time we were there. It was cute!

We didn't do much today. Boyfriend worked on the refrig. ice maker. He's been tinkering with it for a few days. It was working fine until he began working on it.........now not so much!

Sister bear (daughter) had supper out with friends. Boyfriend isn't feeling so good and didn't want supper so I grilled myself and Mr. Bojangles a burger. We ate  together on the deck.

My sister called me today to ask if I wanted to take a walk with her. So we took a walk down by the lake by my mom and dad's house. That was it.......we walked, took a little ride, then I came home.

I am looking forward to tonight's debate for entertainment purposes only................it's a sad, pathetic, frustrating election year......