Saturday, April 10, 2010

saturday

Boyfriend called me last afternoon at work and asked me out for a dinner date, and to to tell me he loved me. I thought it was sweet, and of course I said yes.........but as soon as I hung up the phone all hell broke loose at work and I ended up working 2hours and 45 minutes past quitting time. It was almost 10p when I got home.
We ended up picking up some supper and eating it while sitting in my bed.
Daughter spent the night at a girlfriends.
I've realized I've not treated her like the almost young woman that she is..................because to me she's my little girl............................but she's not, and I have to keep reminding myself of that..............and I'v had to make an effort to allow her to spread her wings.
It's difficult letting go. I just want to keep her safe.

I'm physically hurting. My abdomen and belly button hurt.
Seems my tests weren't as normal as initially reported.
So next week I will have
some biopsies.
It's been some kind of a rollar coaster of a year. I'm not feeling my usual
optimism when it comes to these sort of things.
I just feel defeated.

2 comments:

Therapist Mumbles said...

Sounds like too much is going on. I hope that you get healthy, and that you can make getting healthy you highest priority. I hope the boyfriend is helpful in crunch-time.

Truth is really in the way it's presented (to answer your previous question), but that is also true here.

Jane said...

Hi, Therapist Mumbles!
Thank you for the well wishes.



I agree re: Truth.