Saturday, July 31, 2010

stuff

It's my weekend off. I have to start getting stuff together for the weenie roast and breakfast. So today
I'm going to make a  welcome class of 2011 sign for the yard for the senior class breakfast........fill the pinata...........clean up the deck, and do a little yard work.............and that's about all I can do until the day before the weenie roast and the day before the senior class breakfast.
Daughter invited the cheerleading coaches to her party.
So the coach that called daughter a fucking crybaby bitch will be coming to my house. It's her birthday too. Daughter wants me to get her a birthday cake.
I don't usually hang on to anger.......usually I'm quick to move on.........not sure why I'm hanging on to the anger I feel towards the guy who ran over my son, and the coach who said foul things to my daughter. Probably because of my need to protect my young, even if they aren't so young!
I don't think about these incidents everyday........not even every week..........but when I do think about it, I find that I'm still angry. I don't give the coach the finger every time she speaks to me anymore. I even hugged her(kinda, sorta, halfway awkward hug) at the hospital when she cried when daughter was injured  at cheerleading.     SO.......
If daughter has moved on and put it behind her then I will pretend that I have too. I did tell daughter I'm putting "happy birthday, bitch" on the coaches cake. (i guess I'm not very good at pretending) She laughed. Of course I won't do it. I'll get her a cake,  make nice talk with her at the party........and keep trying to let go of the resentment I feel towards her.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

Hi Jane,
I understand where you are coming from and it hits close when it involves one of your children. I have learned the hard way though that holding onto the anger really only hurts the one holding on. I am hoping and praying that you can let this pass and put it behind you saying it as a new friend. I know you will feel better if you can. The easy thing to do is to continue to be angry. It takes more to let it go. I just want you to feel better about Jane. Hope you have a restful night and a good rest of the weekend.
Odie

Jane said...

You're right, Odie.
You're just right.........t/y!