monday

I worked the weekend.
It was quiet for the most part.
They redivided the work load a few weeks ago.
The division mostly affected my assignment
in that I have fewer patients.
I'm grateful.

Boyfriend and I have decided to try our best
to stay in the here and now, best as we can, while navigating through
life with lung cancer.
However we did plan and pay for his funeral last week, added beneficiaries to different accounts, and today we are
signing Living Will papers.
Tomorrow he will go into the hospital for a biopsy of the lung mass, and inflamed areas
in his trachea.

A couple of days before boyfriend was diagnosed I paid a landscaper a portion of money for a retaining wall to be built in my front wall, and for some plants and hedges to be planted.
I haven't heard from them since.
I try to deal with that today.