saturday

I'm off work for the next 7 days.
Monday is the PET Scan, Tuesday back to the doctor.
The biopsy confirmed the cancer.
It's non-small cell. That's supposed to be a good thing. They couldn't confirm
cancer in the trachea or rule it out. Our hope is the PET Scan will show that the cancer is only in the lung.
So we are in hold mode until Tuesday..........just trying  not to speculate/fortune tell.

Boyfriend began getting angry last night. I've been angry since the day we went to the emergency room. Wanted to scream, wanted to throw dishes. Wanted to scream every time someone would talk about the power of prayer. Pissed me off every time his family told him about someone elses cancer story.
There was comfort for me some how in him expressing his anger. I've tried to swallow mine for fear of upsetting him. Probably wont anymore. I have a chronic stomach ache.......hurts clear through to my back.