sunday

It's my weekend off.

I went to bed Friday night and didn't get out of bed

until 8 this morning.

I tried to will myself up and out of bed but just couldn't do it.

After 2 weeks of trying to get pre auth. from my insurance for the anti-depressant, and me calling my doctors office 3 times to tell them that even with pre auth. the medicine will cost me 149.00 a month, money I'm not williing to spend when Wal Mart and Krogers have perfectly good anti-depressants for 4 bucks...............it took them 15 days to finally hear what I was saying...........I suppose he heard.........maybe not because he ended up picking a med that wasn't on wal marts or krogers list............but it will only cost me 10 bucks/month.

So I took the first pill Thursday evening. It made my stomach feel nervous, nauseated, and my mind wouldn't turn off that night. I literally didn't sleep for even a minute.

It was a struggle at work Friday.

I was exhausted. All I could think about was how I couldn't wait to get some sleep.

I finally made it through the day, came home, and slept from Friday to Sunday.

I'm afraid to take another one of those pills.

I'm also afraid not to.



I'm still a non-smoker. I think today makes a month. My doctor tells me I have to go 2 months without smoking to be considered a non-smoker. Fuck him.