I woke this morning thinking about all I need to do while off of work. I could purge my bedroom and hallway closets. Clean my dresser, throw it away, refinish the antique dresser, get a new mirror for it and put it in my bedroom after I clean my bedroom carpet.
Take all the crap I have stored in the downstairs closets upstairs to the extra bedroom. Hang the new curtains I bought for the extra room in the basement. Hang the new curtains I bought for the extra bedroom. Put up the baseboard in daughters bathroom. Hang the new shutters for the front of the house...................and on and on the list goes.
When I think about it all I feel overwhelmed and then just shut down. Nothing gets done.
I still feel anxious about being off of work. I'm trying to wrap my head around it. I want to be excited. Mostly I just feel guilty.
I'm not depressed. I just need a cigarette and people aren't used to me speaking my mind. I've spent a lifetime perfecting the art of biting my tongue. That ended when I gave up smoking.
I'm not going to smoke again.
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