monday

I had a nice time at my moms yesterday.
I have 4 sisters. We all dropped in throughout the day.
My sister that's a year older than me was there at the same time as me.
So it was even more fun having her there........and then my nephew and his son dropped in..........seeing them is always a good thing.......boyfriend spent time in the garage with dad while mom, sister and I hung out.
I was going through some pictures of my moms side of the family from when she was a child..............one was of her in her graduation robe and hat from her high school graduation ...........I asked her if she had had sex yet with dad when that picture had been taken.................and then I asked her if dad was her first............she wouldn't answer me........so then me and sister teased her and asked if she's had more than 1 "first." She laughed.                                   So.....................
Yesterday was a nice day. Boyfriend gave me some beautiful yellow roses and a kiss.
His sons mother is deceased, and so is his mother. I know it's not the greatest of days for him.
He shared some memories, with a smile, of his mom with my mom.

Today wasn't such a great day. It was horrible to be quite honest.
I called boyfriend because no matter how much I willed myself out of bed, I just couldn't do it. I was scared.
Daughter is angry at me. Boyfriend is at a loss and frustrated.
I'm not depressed.
I'm tired and frustrated.
I'm going to start over tomorrow and try to be better..