New Years resolutions:
Have a face to face "chat" with the guy who wrecked in to my son.
Send a letter to the prison where the guy who beat my nephew ends up, addressed to him, and tell him I think he's a piece of shit.
Send a letter to the DA who will plea bargain with the guy who beat my nephew and let him know his failure to prosecute the other guys involved in the beating, and then the plea bargain with big ears, is not what tax payers put him in office to do.
I'm sick to death of criminals being slapped on the wrist.
Go back to daughters high school as soon as the holiday ends and raise hell with the principal for his failure to call me back........................no.........I take that back.........I will go to the board of education and raise hell because the principal didn't call me back like he said he would..................................and then talk to the superintendent about mis-conduct by 3 of his employees..........I'm usually reserved, quiet, polite.........not anymore..........that part of me went in the garbage with my cigarettes. Plus I'm down right pissed.....what's wrong with letting them know how I feel.
Let go of the anger I feel.
Spend more time with my mom.
Save as much money as I can......
Find an artistic outlet.
Happy New Year, everyone. :O)
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
monday
Christmas Eve was wonderful.
I had dinner here with my kids and boyfriend.
The table looked beautiful. It's the dining room table from my
childhood home.
But anyway..........the mood was light........everyone seemed happy
and talkative.
I t was my favorite part of Christmas.
Christmas Day was spent opening gifts with my kids and boyfriend.
My boys both told boyfriend they wanted to make this Christmas special for me.
I'm not sure why..........
Middle son gave me a beautiful pearl bracelet, oldest son gave to me perfume, Daisey to be specific.........one of my favorites..............and then daughter, God bless her heart........took about 50 pictures of We-Ping and put them in a photo album for me...............cracked me up........and I loved it.............lov ed it all because it came from them.........
After opening gifts we went to my parents house. All of my sisters and their families were there.................................we opened more gifts, ate, and just hung out together. I was tired and wishing I was at home on my couch in warm comfy pajamas.
I tried staying in the moment, and it's not that I didn't enjoy myself, but home IS where I wanted to be.
And now it is all over and I am on my couch in new, soft, warm pajamas. And to boot, I have 3 more days of vacation ahead of me. Yay!
Middle son recently took some college assessment proficiency test. He scored in the top 10% in the nation in critical thinking skills and in writing skills.
I'm very pleased.
I had dinner here with my kids and boyfriend.
The table looked beautiful. It's the dining room table from my
childhood home.
But anyway..........the mood was light........everyone seemed happy
and talkative.
I t was my favorite part of Christmas.
Christmas Day was spent opening gifts with my kids and boyfriend.
My boys both told boyfriend they wanted to make this Christmas special for me.
I'm not sure why..........
Middle son gave me a beautiful pearl bracelet, oldest son gave to me perfume, Daisey to be specific.........one of my favorites..............and then daughter, God bless her heart........took about 50 pictures of We-Ping and put them in a photo album for me...............cracked me up........and I loved it.............lov ed it all because it came from them.........
After opening gifts we went to my parents house. All of my sisters and their families were there.................................we opened more gifts, ate, and just hung out together. I was tired and wishing I was at home on my couch in warm comfy pajamas.
I tried staying in the moment, and it's not that I didn't enjoy myself, but home IS where I wanted to be.
And now it is all over and I am on my couch in new, soft, warm pajamas. And to boot, I have 3 more days of vacation ahead of me. Yay!
Middle son recently took some college assessment proficiency test. He scored in the top 10% in the nation in critical thinking skills and in writing skills.
I'm very pleased.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
tuesday
Can you say vacation?
I'm off work for the next 8 days.
Yay!
I drove by Dudes house the other night.
Dudes the guy that ran over my son while son was on his motorcycle.
So I drove past Dudes house on my way to look at a house up the street from his.
When I saw his/his girlfriends Cadillac in the driveway I had the urge to throw a brick through the window.
I mean I really, really wanted to but knew I couldn't..........................and not beccause it's the wrong thing to do.....................but because I didn't want to put my nursing license in jeopardy by breaking the law. There's always the chance I might get caught.......................so I knew I couldn't do it..........then I thought maybe I could flick a booger at their car........maybe even 2 boogers. I mean, can you get arrested for flipping boogers on someones car? I doubt I could flip them that far though..........................
And then I thought about how I want to jump on the back of the guy who beat my nephew until nephews brain swelled...................and how I want to pull/rip his big ears off his head............................................................and how I want to ask the cheerleading coach "now what did you call my daughter, you fucking bitch."
I won't break car windows, or flip boogers.
I won't pull Pierce's ears from his head. Or jump on his back and punch him in the face when I see him in the court room.
I just need to let go. For my own emotional well being.
So I will try.......................................
I'm off work for the next 8 days.
Yay!
I drove by Dudes house the other night.
Dudes the guy that ran over my son while son was on his motorcycle.
So I drove past Dudes house on my way to look at a house up the street from his.
When I saw his/his girlfriends Cadillac in the driveway I had the urge to throw a brick through the window.
I mean I really, really wanted to but knew I couldn't..........................and not beccause it's the wrong thing to do.....................but because I didn't want to put my nursing license in jeopardy by breaking the law. There's always the chance I might get caught.......................so I knew I couldn't do it..........then I thought maybe I could flick a booger at their car........maybe even 2 boogers. I mean, can you get arrested for flipping boogers on someones car? I doubt I could flip them that far though..........................
And then I thought about how I want to jump on the back of the guy who beat my nephew until nephews brain swelled...................and how I want to pull/rip his big ears off his head............................................................and how I want to ask the cheerleading coach "now what did you call my daughter, you fucking bitch."
I won't break car windows, or flip boogers.
I won't pull Pierce's ears from his head. Or jump on his back and punch him in the face when I see him in the court room.
I just need to let go. For my own emotional well being.
So I will try.......................................
Saturday, December 19, 2009
piss stew
I went out to dinner tonight with my 4 sisters.
It's our yearly Christmas dinner without children, husbands, boyfriends, parents...ect.
We've been doing it for years.
It's one of my favorite nights of the year. The other day I found an envelope tucked between my kitchen doors. It had a hundred dollar bill in it and a note from mom and dad telling me and my sisters to enjoy ourselves at our dinner.
Isn't that sweet?
The dinner was great. Conversation was fun, funny, and heartwarming. The gift exchange was fun.......and emotional...............
When my mom and dad moved from our family home, my sister and her husband bought the house. When mom and dad moved out mom told sister that mom had a few boxes of stuff in the attic and would came back for it eventually.
One day way back when mom was critically ill, my sister went to the attic to look through the boxes.
She found a box filled with stuff mom had written including poems she'd written about each of her daughters.
This year sister asked mom if she could take each of the poems to give to us as a Christmas gift.
Mom said yes.
Sister took each of the poems to an embroidery shop and had each one embroidered and then framed.
This is what mine said:
Sandy Gay, Age 7
Raven haired with warm dark eyes,
Aready smile filled with childly guise.
Freckled nose and two teeth missing,
Husky voiced with just a touch of lisping
A lovely package of innocent love,
Sandy, a gift from God, From up above.
I love it.
Thoughts from my mom from way back when......
The school principal called me yesterday.
He told me the cheerleading coach admitted to using foul language, and losing her cool at practice but that it wasn't directed at any one individual..............therefore he wasn't going to fire her, but he was going to have her take some anger management through the school guidance counselor.
I asked him if he interviewed the other coach. "no" I asked him if he interviewed any of the other cheerleaders "No"...........................So I said to him "SHE CALLED MY DAUGHTER A FUCKING, CRY BABY BITCH! That is not acceptable behavior. You did not do a thorough investigation!
I also pointed out to the principal all the money I've paid to the coach for items I've yet to receive. The conversation ended with the principal saying he would interview the others present at the practice and he'd call me later in the day.
He didn't call.
School is closed for the next 18 days.
18 days is a long time for me to sit and stew.
He made a big mistake by not calling me back.
It's our yearly Christmas dinner without children, husbands, boyfriends, parents...ect.
We've been doing it for years.
It's one of my favorite nights of the year. The other day I found an envelope tucked between my kitchen doors. It had a hundred dollar bill in it and a note from mom and dad telling me and my sisters to enjoy ourselves at our dinner.
Isn't that sweet?
The dinner was great. Conversation was fun, funny, and heartwarming. The gift exchange was fun.......and emotional...............
When my mom and dad moved from our family home, my sister and her husband bought the house. When mom and dad moved out mom told sister that mom had a few boxes of stuff in the attic and would came back for it eventually.
One day way back when mom was critically ill, my sister went to the attic to look through the boxes.
She found a box filled with stuff mom had written including poems she'd written about each of her daughters.
This year sister asked mom if she could take each of the poems to give to us as a Christmas gift.
Mom said yes.
Sister took each of the poems to an embroidery shop and had each one embroidered and then framed.
This is what mine said:
Sandy Gay, Age 7
Raven haired with warm dark eyes,
Aready smile filled with childly guise.
Freckled nose and two teeth missing,
Husky voiced with just a touch of lisping
A lovely package of innocent love,
Sandy, a gift from God, From up above.
I love it.
Thoughts from my mom from way back when......
The school principal called me yesterday.
He told me the cheerleading coach admitted to using foul language, and losing her cool at practice but that it wasn't directed at any one individual..............therefore he wasn't going to fire her, but he was going to have her take some anger management through the school guidance counselor.
I asked him if he interviewed the other coach. "no" I asked him if he interviewed any of the other cheerleaders "No"...........................So I said to him "SHE CALLED MY DAUGHTER A FUCKING, CRY BABY BITCH! That is not acceptable behavior. You did not do a thorough investigation!
I also pointed out to the principal all the money I've paid to the coach for items I've yet to receive. The conversation ended with the principal saying he would interview the others present at the practice and he'd call me later in the day.
He didn't call.
School is closed for the next 18 days.
18 days is a long time for me to sit and stew.
He made a big mistake by not calling me back.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
psycho cheerleading sponsor headed for unemployment
Yesterday while at cheerleading practice, the cheerleading sponsor called my daughter a
"FUCKING, CRY-BABY BITCH"........................but not until she told daughter that daughter "doesn't do a FUCKING thing for the squad...........followed by "except look
FUCKING STUPID while doing the dance!"
I've never seen my daughter so beside herself with anger & hurt feelings.
I missed work today so that I could be at the school first thing this morning.
That fucking school has lost it's fucking mind.
They've treated my daughter in an inappropriate manner 2 times too many................Boyfriend and I spent 45 minutes this morning in the principals office discussing what happened last evening at cheerleading practice............and while I was in there I told him specifically how his director of special education has been an unprofessional, rude, hateful, bitch to me and my daughter...............how my daughters rights have been violated by the school.I insisted that he right their wrongs.
We'll see what happens and whether or not I will need to hire an attorney.
Why can't I just have my quiet, peaceful life back.
It's been one freakin drama after another. I for one am tired.
My vacation starts Tuesday.
I'm turning off my phones..............and going camping in my backyard.
"FUCKING, CRY-BABY BITCH"........................but not until she told daughter that daughter "doesn't do a FUCKING thing for the squad...........followed by "except look
FUCKING STUPID while doing the dance!"
I've never seen my daughter so beside herself with anger & hurt feelings.
I missed work today so that I could be at the school first thing this morning.
That fucking school has lost it's fucking mind.
They've treated my daughter in an inappropriate manner 2 times too many................Boyfriend and I spent 45 minutes this morning in the principals office discussing what happened last evening at cheerleading practice............and while I was in there I told him specifically how his director of special education has been an unprofessional, rude, hateful, bitch to me and my daughter...............how my daughters rights have been violated by the school.I insisted that he right their wrongs.
We'll see what happens and whether or not I will need to hire an attorney.
Why can't I just have my quiet, peaceful life back.
It's been one freakin drama after another. I for one am tired.
My vacation starts Tuesday.
I'm turning off my phones..............and going camping in my backyard.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
on quitting smoking
It's been five months since I had my last cigarette.
I still want one some of the time.......even get a little agitated/restless because of the craving.
The other night after getting in my car to drive home from work, I reached for my purse to get a cigarette. I forgot I'd quit.
My sense of smell has improved..........&
Almost everything tastes salty to me.
Post nasal drip is a symptom of withdrawl from smoking.
I STILL have that whole thing going on..........the guilt is gone though........
The guilt I felt everytime I smoked............ I knew better. I knew the risks..............................NOW the guilt is gone .
I'm proud of myself.
I did something I thought was impossible.
And my oldest son has followed suit. He hasn't smoked for 3 weeks. I'm thrilled beyond words, and very proud of him.
I still want one some of the time.......even get a little agitated/restless because of the craving.
The other night after getting in my car to drive home from work, I reached for my purse to get a cigarette. I forgot I'd quit.
My sense of smell has improved..........&
Almost everything tastes salty to me.
Post nasal drip is a symptom of withdrawl from smoking.
I STILL have that whole thing going on..........the guilt is gone though........
The guilt I felt everytime I smoked............ I knew better. I knew the risks..............................NOW the guilt is gone .
I'm proud of myself.
I did something I thought was impossible.
And my oldest son has followed suit. He hasn't smoked for 3 weeks. I'm thrilled beyond words, and very proud of him.
Monday, December 14, 2009
tis the season
I'm finished with all my Christmas shopping except for dads gift.
He's the most difficult to buy for.
He has everything he needs and really doesn't want for anything.
So what's a girl to do?
I did blow up 2 PICTURES for him and mom.
In one of the pics is me , sister # 3and sister #5, and mom kneeling down next to us...........it's Easter Sunday and we're in our new Easter/church clothing..............and another of the same except dad is in the picture rather than mom.. I think we're 2, 3, and 4 years old in the picture. It's cute. I had the pictures enlarged to a 5x7 and framed.
I still have work to do in the backyard.
I'm looking forward to it.....honestly I am.........I just wish I had more time.
I can't keep my days straight.
I guess it's because of my new work schedule.
Like right this very minute I'm not sure if it's Tuesday, or Monday.....
He's the most difficult to buy for.
He has everything he needs and really doesn't want for anything.
So what's a girl to do?
I did blow up 2 PICTURES for him and mom.
In one of the pics is me , sister # 3and sister #5, and mom kneeling down next to us...........it's Easter Sunday and we're in our new Easter/church clothing..............and another of the same except dad is in the picture rather than mom.. I think we're 2, 3, and 4 years old in the picture. It's cute. I had the pictures enlarged to a 5x7 and framed.
I still have work to do in the backyard.
I'm looking forward to it.....honestly I am.........I just wish I had more time.
I can't keep my days straight.
I guess it's because of my new work schedule.
Like right this very minute I'm not sure if it's Tuesday, or Monday.....
Friday, December 11, 2009
friday
I had 2 trees removed from my back yard yesterday. One of them was the old maple tree that sat next to the back end of my deck.
I t use to be a beautiful tree...................... it was one of the reasons I bought this house. I remember thinking how the boys could have such fun climbing it.................and they did. They also used to swing on the tire swing that we hung for them..........................................................but now the tree has become a huge, leaf shedding, limb dropping, siding rubbing on mine and my neighbors house........and my gutters are constantly full of crap.............I could have just trimmed the tree...........I think though that maybe it was dying..........and my yard just isn't big enough for a 50 year old maple. The decision is made and it's done with already.........I have a little bit of regret..........I probably should have just trimmed it....................I also had an old cottonwood tree removed. No regrets. It was ugly, and it, along with the maple, constantly shaded the yard keeping the lawn moist making it impossible to have a pretty lawn.
So anyway, today I need to do some clean-up in my yard...............and that's it for work. The rest of my day will be spent doing fun things like
making ribs for supper and hike the woods behind my house.
I t use to be a beautiful tree...................... it was one of the reasons I bought this house. I remember thinking how the boys could have such fun climbing it.................and they did. They also used to swing on the tire swing that we hung for them..........................................................but now the tree has become a huge, leaf shedding, limb dropping, siding rubbing on mine and my neighbors house........and my gutters are constantly full of crap.............I could have just trimmed the tree...........I think though that maybe it was dying..........and my yard just isn't big enough for a 50 year old maple. The decision is made and it's done with already.........I have a little bit of regret..........I probably should have just trimmed it....................I also had an old cottonwood tree removed. No regrets. It was ugly, and it, along with the maple, constantly shaded the yard keeping the lawn moist making it impossible to have a pretty lawn.
So anyway, today I need to do some clean-up in my yard...............and that's it for work. The rest of my day will be spent doing fun things like
making ribs for supper and hike the woods behind my house.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
sunday
Went shopping last evening in hopes of completing my Christmas shopping.
I'm soooooooooo close to having it done. But close isn't good enough.
One more trip to the mall should do it. I hope!
Today I plan on hiking the woods behind my house.
I want to be outside, in the woods, close to nature. I want to feel the cold, crisp, air on my face and in my lungs.
Daughter's debating whether or not she wants to go with me...............&......
Thats' really all I have planned for the day.
I'm soooooooooo close to having it done. But close isn't good enough.
One more trip to the mall should do it. I hope!
Today I plan on hiking the woods behind my house.
I want to be outside, in the woods, close to nature. I want to feel the cold, crisp, air on my face and in my lungs.
Daughter's debating whether or not she wants to go with me...............&......
Thats' really all I have planned for the day.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
a little piece of my past
"You're in my heart you're in my soul......you'll be my prayer should I grow old......you are my lover.....you're my best friend.....you're in my soul"......................................................................I heard that song on my way home from work tonight.
It took me back to high school......................back to when I was a young, innocent, shy girl.........................and there was this guy..................president of the national honor society, president of his class, starting quarter back of the football team, star of the track and wrestling team.............intelligent, nice, good looking, funny...............................and there he was asking me out on a date...................me telling him "no" because I was afraid I wasn't good enough......................him saying "you'll go"........he wasn't being cocky...........he was being encouraging.....................................and I did go...................................and we ended up going on many many dates......... but it was never exclusive or serious......... he would sing that song to me................. I fell head over heels in love with him...........I loved him so much it hurt..............but that's not something I would have shared with him.........because I knew he didn't feel the same way. We had fun together. I shared my future dreams with him, and he didn't laugh. He encouraged me. I encouraged him.
Then he fell head over heels in love with a girl a year older than I.......................and my heart was severely bruised. I cried so many tears I could have flooded a city.
After high school he left on a full scholarship to Cornell University. I was over him by then, and figured I'd never see him again.....................but I was wrong......
He showed up at my house once and we went for a ride on his motorcycle......&....we talked.................he brought up my dreams I'd shared with him. I was touched that he remembered..........
He's a good guy.
A productive man who has over come many obstacles................................................................
When I heard that song today I thought of him and I smiled.
It took me back to high school......................back to when I was a young, innocent, shy girl.........................and there was this guy..................president of the national honor society, president of his class, starting quarter back of the football team, star of the track and wrestling team.............intelligent, nice, good looking, funny...............................and there he was asking me out on a date...................me telling him "no" because I was afraid I wasn't good enough......................him saying "you'll go"........he wasn't being cocky...........he was being encouraging.....................................and I did go...................................and we ended up going on many many dates......... but it was never exclusive or serious......... he would sing that song to me................. I fell head over heels in love with him...........I loved him so much it hurt..............but that's not something I would have shared with him.........because I knew he didn't feel the same way. We had fun together. I shared my future dreams with him, and he didn't laugh. He encouraged me. I encouraged him.
Then he fell head over heels in love with a girl a year older than I.......................and my heart was severely bruised. I cried so many tears I could have flooded a city.
After high school he left on a full scholarship to Cornell University. I was over him by then, and figured I'd never see him again.....................but I was wrong......
He showed up at my house once and we went for a ride on his motorcycle......&....we talked.................he brought up my dreams I'd shared with him. I was touched that he remembered..........
He's a good guy.
A productive man who has over come many obstacles................................................................
When I heard that song today I thought of him and I smiled.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
mall
Boyfriend and I went to the mall today.
My goal was to finish my Christmas shopping.
I'm almost there.....
I'm too tired to blog.
As soon as daughter gets home from cheerleading practice
I'm going to bed.
Niters
My goal was to finish my Christmas shopping.
I'm almost there.....
I'm too tired to blog.
As soon as daughter gets home from cheerleading practice
I'm going to bed.
Niters
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
tuesday
I didn't nap today.
Instead I went shopping with boyfriend and then out to lunch.
I hung out with daughter this evening.
I fixed her hair 8 different ways.
She didn't like any of the ways I fixed it.
I thought it looked cute.
I finally decorated my Christmas tree.
It looks beautiful.
Boyfriend is going to the mall with me tomorrow.
I'm going to try to finsih my Christmas shopping.
I'm not good at work politics.
I speak my mind.
I try to use tact when speaking my mind. I really do try not to offend.
I don't kiss ass because I don't know how to do
it without it coming across
as kissing ass. I mean I'd kiss ass if
it would work for me. I just don't know how.
I'm horrible at the whole game we
play in our daily work lives. I suck at work politics.
So I just try to do a really good, exceptional,job and hope that that will be enough.
Recently we've had a few problems at work...........serious issues that need to be addressed.
I've been very vocal to my boss and my bosses boss and
I'm worried it's going to cost me my job.
Better
to lose my job though than my license.
But I'd really like to keep both.
As if there's not enough in this life to worry about.............
Instead I went shopping with boyfriend and then out to lunch.
I hung out with daughter this evening.
I fixed her hair 8 different ways.
She didn't like any of the ways I fixed it.
I thought it looked cute.
I finally decorated my Christmas tree.
It looks beautiful.
Boyfriend is going to the mall with me tomorrow.
I'm going to try to finsih my Christmas shopping.
I'm not good at work politics.
I speak my mind.
I try to use tact when speaking my mind. I really do try not to offend.
I don't kiss ass because I don't know how to do
it without it coming across
as kissing ass. I mean I'd kiss ass if
it would work for me. I just don't know how.
I'm horrible at the whole game we
play in our daily work lives. I suck at work politics.
So I just try to do a really good, exceptional,job and hope that that will be enough.
Recently we've had a few problems at work...........serious issues that need to be addressed.
I've been very vocal to my boss and my bosses boss and
I'm worried it's going to cost me my job.
Better
to lose my job though than my license.
But I'd really like to keep both.
As if there's not enough in this life to worry about.............
tuesday
I hope the families of the cops murdered by the guy Huckabee pardoned, sue Huckabee. I hope they find a way to go after every dime he has. Send a message to the other dumb asses who pardon child rapists, rapists, murderers, and other violent people.
Tiger woods hit a tree and a fire hydrant. Big fucking deal. I wonder how much of the tax payers money will be spent to investigate.
Boyfriend spent the weekend in the hospital. I spent the weekend working 12 hour days and then going to the hospital to be with him. It was one long 72 hour day.
I am exhausted.
The hosp thought he was having a heart attack.
I think my Thanksgiving day turkey made him ill, or he has a peptic ulcer.
He's home now..............and nothing has been resolved...so says me.
I'm going to bed now to give my mind the rest it needs.
Tiger woods hit a tree and a fire hydrant. Big fucking deal. I wonder how much of the tax payers money will be spent to investigate.
Boyfriend spent the weekend in the hospital. I spent the weekend working 12 hour days and then going to the hospital to be with him. It was one long 72 hour day.
I am exhausted.
The hosp thought he was having a heart attack.
I think my Thanksgiving day turkey made him ill, or he has a peptic ulcer.
He's home now..............and nothing has been resolved...so says me.
I'm going to bed now to give my mind the rest it needs.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
tuesday
Today I feel defeated.
I know the way I feel right now is temporary. I'll be fine in the morning. But for now
I feel defeated, and exhausted.
I wish I could re-do this day.
I'd do it better.
I know the way I feel right now is temporary. I'll be fine in the morning. But for now
I feel defeated, and exhausted.
I wish I could re-do this day.
I'd do it better.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
friday
I've worked 33 hours the past 2 days. I'm beat!
Tommorow is my of day.
I think I'll just hang out on the couch watching movies with daughter and We-Ping. Or by myself if daughter and We-Ping have other plans.
Tommorow is my of day.
I think I'll just hang out on the couch watching movies with daughter and We-Ping. Or by myself if daughter and We-Ping have other plans.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
wed
Dude that ran over my son was finally arrested.
He will be arraigned in March........and they've added new charges since he was a no show
back in Aug/Sept.
I guess he's had a bad past couple of days. GOOD!.....................................and I hate to tell him, but things for him are only going to get worse.
I'm going to sue my daughters school.
They've been violating her rights.
Unfortunately I wasn't very well informed or it wouldn't have gone on this long.
I had a meeting last week with the director of special ed. and another staff member.
They lie, they're condescending, they're hateful, and they've caused my daughter pain and suffering.
I'm through dealing with these people.
He will be arraigned in March........and they've added new charges since he was a no show
back in Aug/Sept.
I guess he's had a bad past couple of days. GOOD!.....................................and I hate to tell him, but things for him are only going to get worse.
I'm going to sue my daughters school.
They've been violating her rights.
Unfortunately I wasn't very well informed or it wouldn't have gone on this long.
I had a meeting last week with the director of special ed. and another staff member.
They lie, they're condescending, they're hateful, and they've caused my daughter pain and suffering.
I'm through dealing with these people.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
tuesday
I have to finish my holiday cleaning today.
It's not that I won't clean the house again until after Christmas. But I want to "deep clean"
and then just maintain between now and Christmas.
I did at least half my Christmas shopping lastnight on line.
I feel way ahead of the game!
It's pouring down rain.
I have all the lights off to set the stage and then
the door is cracked open so that I can better hear the rain fall.
I love listening to it.
Boyfriend is in the bedroom watching "Crossing Jordan."
Background music is Elvis Presley singing "Are you Lonesome Tonight." I think that's the name of the song.
I had this flash of a memory.
I was sitting on the living room couch with sister #3 and sister #5. My dad had the old console stereo
on and he was playing one of his Elvis albums. We were dad's audience...........he was singing "are you lonesome tonight" I can hear mine and my sisters giggles as dad performs for us. I can still picture him go down on one knee and extend his arm out towards us as he sings. His microphone an ordinary household item.
My sisters and I liked when dad performed for us. Some of the time he was Tom Jones, and then other times he'd be Johnny Mathis or Elvis.
I think it was his way of dealing with a difficult day at work.
It always made us smile
It's not that I won't clean the house again until after Christmas. But I want to "deep clean"
and then just maintain between now and Christmas.
I did at least half my Christmas shopping lastnight on line.
I feel way ahead of the game!
It's pouring down rain.
I have all the lights off to set the stage and then
the door is cracked open so that I can better hear the rain fall.
I love listening to it.
Boyfriend is in the bedroom watching "Crossing Jordan."
Background music is Elvis Presley singing "Are you Lonesome Tonight." I think that's the name of the song.
I had this flash of a memory.
I was sitting on the living room couch with sister #3 and sister #5. My dad had the old console stereo
on and he was playing one of his Elvis albums. We were dad's audience...........he was singing "are you lonesome tonight" I can hear mine and my sisters giggles as dad performs for us. I can still picture him go down on one knee and extend his arm out towards us as he sings. His microphone an ordinary household item.
My sisters and I liked when dad performed for us. Some of the time he was Tom Jones, and then other times he'd be Johnny Mathis or Elvis.
I think it was his way of dealing with a difficult day at work.
It always made us smile
Monday, November 16, 2009
monday
So I got my retro kitchen table and chairs
this evening.
It was my sisters mother-in-laws.
For the
most part it's in good shape.
I really like it!
I'm selling my kitchen table.
It's thick, very heavy, and oak.
It's in perfect shape. I
loved it when I bought it.
Now not so much.
I was supposed to put it
in the yard today with a for
sale sign on it. But didn't.
I'll do it tomorrow!
I put a few more Christmas lights
out front today.
They look pretty.
this evening.
It was my sisters mother-in-laws.
For the
most part it's in good shape.
I really like it!
I'm selling my kitchen table.
It's thick, very heavy, and oak.
It's in perfect shape. I
loved it when I bought it.
Now not so much.
I was supposed to put it
in the yard today with a for
sale sign on it. But didn't.
I'll do it tomorrow!
I put a few more Christmas lights
out front today.
They look pretty.
sunday
This past Friday I hung my outdoor Christmas lights.
They look pretty.
I also rearranged my living room and dining room furniture.
I think I pulled a chest wall muscle moving furniture. When I bend & reach or move my arms a certain way
I get knife like pains in my chest. :O) always something, huh?
I also cleaned my garage.
Some dim wit was supposed to come to my house Saturday to buy my kitchen table and a love seat. Dim Wit was a no show. Tomorrow the table and sofa go in my driveway with a for sale sign on them.
I got a retro kitchen table and chairs to replace the one going in the driveway tomorrow & I love it!
Bubba is home.
Sons went out to dinner with him this afternoon.
I'm thrilled beyond words.
He's a great young guy.
Maybe that's why Pierce beat him.
Maybe Bubba is what Pierce wishes he could have been..............and since he can't be....he's angry & took that anger out on Bubba.
Who knows....
They look pretty.
I also rearranged my living room and dining room furniture.
I think I pulled a chest wall muscle moving furniture. When I bend & reach or move my arms a certain way
I get knife like pains in my chest. :O) always something, huh?
I also cleaned my garage.
Some dim wit was supposed to come to my house Saturday to buy my kitchen table and a love seat. Dim Wit was a no show. Tomorrow the table and sofa go in my driveway with a for sale sign on them.
I got a retro kitchen table and chairs to replace the one going in the driveway tomorrow & I love it!
Bubba is home.
Sons went out to dinner with him this afternoon.
I'm thrilled beyond words.
He's a great young guy.
Maybe that's why Pierce beat him.
Maybe Bubba is what Pierce wishes he could have been..............and since he can't be....he's angry & took that anger out on Bubba.
Who knows....
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
nov. 11
I had 3 houses that I'd drive past a couple times a week waiting for them to be put up for sale.
The nephew of the lady who lives in one of those houses has my name and number and will call me after he gets his aunt placed in a nursing home. I don't drive by that house anymore..............................one of the other 2 houses is up the street from "Dudes" house. He's the guy who while driving without insurance and on a suspended license, ran over my son. He was charged with driving without insurance and a suspended drivers license....or something like that............he didn't show up for court............the judge issued a bench warrent..................so while driving by his house today to check out the house up the street from him, I saw Dude coming from the car in his driveway and then walking up his front steps. I pulled over and called the police. Two cruisers came (I watched from up the street).....they knocked on his front door, walked around to the side of the house.....and maybe went to the backyard, but I'm not sure because I couldn't see ........and then they came down from Dudes yard and back to their cruisers.
I flagged down one of those cruisers. He told me they couldn't enter the house, and that he was sorry. So I'm guessing what I'll have to do is find out where and when Dude works and send the police to his work.............or watch his house one day, follow him when he leaves and then call the police.
Sister hasn't called. I'm afraid of calling and waking her. I do know that her husbands best friend, her husbands boss, and her brother-in-law are moving her washer, dryer, and refrigerator from her old house to her new one today.........the rest of her stuff has alread been moved...........my other older sister and I spent Saturday cleaning the house that sister is moving from......... my dad cut the grass, and raked the yard at the old house...................sister is stressed dealing with her husbands illness.............she looks like the walking dead. She can't weigh more than 80 or 90 lbs.
I just don't know what to do except to love and support her........
The nephew of the lady who lives in one of those houses has my name and number and will call me after he gets his aunt placed in a nursing home. I don't drive by that house anymore..............................one of the other 2 houses is up the street from "Dudes" house. He's the guy who while driving without insurance and on a suspended license, ran over my son. He was charged with driving without insurance and a suspended drivers license....or something like that............he didn't show up for court............the judge issued a bench warrent..................so while driving by his house today to check out the house up the street from him, I saw Dude coming from the car in his driveway and then walking up his front steps. I pulled over and called the police. Two cruisers came (I watched from up the street).....they knocked on his front door, walked around to the side of the house.....and maybe went to the backyard, but I'm not sure because I couldn't see ........and then they came down from Dudes yard and back to their cruisers.
I flagged down one of those cruisers. He told me they couldn't enter the house, and that he was sorry. So I'm guessing what I'll have to do is find out where and when Dude works and send the police to his work.............or watch his house one day, follow him when he leaves and then call the police.
Sister hasn't called. I'm afraid of calling and waking her. I do know that her husbands best friend, her husbands boss, and her brother-in-law are moving her washer, dryer, and refrigerator from her old house to her new one today.........the rest of her stuff has alread been moved...........my other older sister and I spent Saturday cleaning the house that sister is moving from......... my dad cut the grass, and raked the yard at the old house...................sister is stressed dealing with her husbands illness.............she looks like the walking dead. She can't weigh more than 80 or 90 lbs.
I just don't know what to do except to love and support her........
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
tuesday
Older sister called me at work this evening. She was sobbing. Her husband of 30 years (they married when she was 18, he was 20) has been in the hospital. She hasn't been able to bring herself to go see him.
So she calls me sobbing and asked me to spend the night with her. She didn't want to be alone.
An hour or so after she called me, she called back to tell me she was going to pick her dog up (they are in the process of moving from their old home to their new home) from the old house and she was just going to camp out in the new house with MoJo the dog.
I feel badly for her..............offered to take her to the hospital tomorrow. Told her I'd hang out in the gift shop while she visits her husband. So we'll see.
I didn't get rid of the old 1950's console stereo. Sons carried it to the basement for me. I just couldn't part with it.
If I dont go tto the hospital with sister tomorrow I'll probably continue on with my holiday cleaning and organizing.
I have the next 3 days off of work. So Yay!
So she calls me sobbing and asked me to spend the night with her. She didn't want to be alone.
An hour or so after she called me, she called back to tell me she was going to pick her dog up (they are in the process of moving from their old home to their new home) from the old house and she was just going to camp out in the new house with MoJo the dog.
I feel badly for her..............offered to take her to the hospital tomorrow. Told her I'd hang out in the gift shop while she visits her husband. So we'll see.
I didn't get rid of the old 1950's console stereo. Sons carried it to the basement for me. I just couldn't part with it.
If I dont go tto the hospital with sister tomorrow I'll probably continue on with my holiday cleaning and organizing.
I have the next 3 days off of work. So Yay!
Monday, November 09, 2009
monday
nothing new ......................tired from the long work day..................going to watch Dexter and then go to bed.
We-ping is in the bathroom sink sleeping. She looks cute.
I hate when people call a sink a zinc. I don't get it.
We-ping is in the bathroom sink sleeping. She looks cute.
I hate when people call a sink a zinc. I don't get it.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
saturday
Some guy and his son are coming to my house today to take away the stereo that sat in my mom and dads house all through my childhood.
It still works. It's filled with albums from the 50's, 60's, 70's and the 80's.
I even have an extra gold tipped needle for it.
The problem with it is that it must weigh 300 lbs.
I want to keep it but when I go to change around a room, or when I want to put in carpeting, or move the stereo to another room, it means getting together a group of guys to move the fucker. That's no easy task, getting the guys together.
I'm going to keep the albums, and I have a small turn table that boyfriend got for me a few years back............so it's really the music that's important, right? Not so much what we played the music on............
I was at Lowes the other day and some guy told me I had a pretty smile. I thought to myself "aw! how sweet."
Yesterday at work I was called a mother fucking liberated lesbian. I thought to myself "atleast I have 10 toes you dog fucker."
It still works. It's filled with albums from the 50's, 60's, 70's and the 80's.
I even have an extra gold tipped needle for it.
The problem with it is that it must weigh 300 lbs.
I want to keep it but when I go to change around a room, or when I want to put in carpeting, or move the stereo to another room, it means getting together a group of guys to move the fucker. That's no easy task, getting the guys together.
I'm going to keep the albums, and I have a small turn table that boyfriend got for me a few years back............so it's really the music that's important, right? Not so much what we played the music on............
I was at Lowes the other day and some guy told me I had a pretty smile. I thought to myself "aw! how sweet."
Yesterday at work I was called a mother fucking liberated lesbian. I thought to myself "atleast I have 10 toes you dog fucker."
Thursday, November 05, 2009
thursday
I painted the front/entry of my chain link fence. It loooks good!
I hung my clean living room curtains. They look brand new!
I cleaned off my dining room table which was covered with shit from one end to the other. And I cleaned my driveway, because even driveways get dirty.........................................so I did that stuff yesterday. Today I worked.
I left work tonight while there was chaos.
I'm trying to learn to let go, and let the oncoming shift take over..............it's hard for me to do............but I'm getting better at it.
Sat and talked with daughter tonight and lastnight.
We discussed her plans for her senior year next year, and her plans for after high school........................and then we talked about everything else.
She's a good kid. I'm glad I got her for my daughter.
I hung my clean living room curtains. They look brand new!
I cleaned off my dining room table which was covered with shit from one end to the other. And I cleaned my driveway, because even driveways get dirty.........................................so I did that stuff yesterday. Today I worked.
I left work tonight while there was chaos.
I'm trying to learn to let go, and let the oncoming shift take over..............it's hard for me to do............but I'm getting better at it.
Sat and talked with daughter tonight and lastnight.
We discussed her plans for her senior year next year, and her plans for after high school........................and then we talked about everything else.
She's a good kid. I'm glad I got her for my daughter.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
much of the same
I got up early this morning to shower and be dressed for when it would be time to take daughter to school. After I dropped her off I went to Lowes. My goal was to find a temporary fix for the mess I made tearing down the wall in the front yard. I wasn't very successful at finding a fix. So I ended up buying a couple boxes of the old fashioned, fat, Christmas bulb strands used back in the day. Every year I consider buying some, but never did......until now................and as far as the front yard goes, it's just going to have to wait till next spring.
I also went to Sears. I was thinking about buying a leaf blower..........instead I bought some paint for the opening to my chain link fence. It needs a little sprucing up........my goal is to get it done today.........I also plan to bag the leaves that are in a pile on the deck.
We-Ping is not a lap cat. Actually I think she's feral. I found her at my work down 8 feet in a laundry exhaust area................at the time we had multiple feral cats in the yard at my work.........We-Ping is one of their babies.
She's very sensitive to touch, and will only allow us to touch her for a few seconds at a time....................on the other hand, if she initiates the physical contact such as rubbing her head on our feet& ankles, the contact will last some of the time for several minutes. Or if she's sleeping I can sneak kisses, rub my face in her soft fur, and pet her.
She has never jumped on my lap just to nap or to be petted. She's never jumped on to my lap period......until today.
When I pulled in the driveway this morning after my trip to Lowes and Sears We-Ping ran from the deck to my car..........she almost always meets me at my car when I come home and then follows me up the deck steps and inot the house. So I'm sitting in the car in my driveway with my car door opened and I'm just sitting there lost in my thoughts........We-Ping jumped into the car and then up on my lap. She didn't sit.......she just stood there for a second looking at me and then she jumped out of the car.
It made me smile. Pets can be theraputic. We should all have one.
I also went to Sears. I was thinking about buying a leaf blower..........instead I bought some paint for the opening to my chain link fence. It needs a little sprucing up........my goal is to get it done today.........I also plan to bag the leaves that are in a pile on the deck.
We-Ping is not a lap cat. Actually I think she's feral. I found her at my work down 8 feet in a laundry exhaust area................at the time we had multiple feral cats in the yard at my work.........We-Ping is one of their babies.
She's very sensitive to touch, and will only allow us to touch her for a few seconds at a time....................on the other hand, if she initiates the physical contact such as rubbing her head on our feet& ankles, the contact will last some of the time for several minutes. Or if she's sleeping I can sneak kisses, rub my face in her soft fur, and pet her.
She has never jumped on my lap just to nap or to be petted. She's never jumped on to my lap period......until today.
When I pulled in the driveway this morning after my trip to Lowes and Sears We-Ping ran from the deck to my car..........she almost always meets me at my car when I come home and then follows me up the deck steps and inot the house. So I'm sitting in the car in my driveway with my car door opened and I'm just sitting there lost in my thoughts........We-Ping jumped into the car and then up on my lap. She didn't sit.......she just stood there for a second looking at me and then she jumped out of the car.
It made me smile. Pets can be theraputic. We should all have one.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
tuesday
I took daughter to school this morning. On the way down our hill a 4 point buck was on his way up the hill. I thought back to when my father-n-law passed away.
About a week or so after my father-n-law died, I was in my mother-n-laws kitchen helping her with the dishes.
She smiled and told me to look out the window to her back yard. I looked out the window and was surprised to see 2 deer. She was positive it was a sign from my father-n-law and her mother letting her know that they were ok.
Eight years later my mother-n-law died. I was at my kitchen sink a day or two after the funeral looking out over my backyard. Three deer were standing at my gate. I'd lived here around nine years at the time of her death and had never seen a deer in my yard or neighborhood before or after that day. I felt it was my father/mother-n-law and, my mother-n-laws mother, letting me know they were ok.
So today while driving down my street and seeing that buck walk up the street I thought of Joel. ......... I felt like he was letting me know he would be ok.
I felt comforted.
I washed my living room windows and window seals today. I also washed my living room curtains. I cleaned the living room storm door..................and the hallway mirror.........and with boyfriends help I managed to rake all of my front lawn, bag the leaves, and mow 3/4 of the front lawn before the lawnmower died. I also raked the deck, but have yet to bag those leaves.
I feel good for having accomplished a little bit of something.
About a week or so after my father-n-law died, I was in my mother-n-laws kitchen helping her with the dishes.
She smiled and told me to look out the window to her back yard. I looked out the window and was surprised to see 2 deer. She was positive it was a sign from my father-n-law and her mother letting her know that they were ok.
Eight years later my mother-n-law died. I was at my kitchen sink a day or two after the funeral looking out over my backyard. Three deer were standing at my gate. I'd lived here around nine years at the time of her death and had never seen a deer in my yard or neighborhood before or after that day. I felt it was my father/mother-n-law and, my mother-n-laws mother, letting me know they were ok.
So today while driving down my street and seeing that buck walk up the street I thought of Joel. ......... I felt like he was letting me know he would be ok.
I felt comforted.
I washed my living room windows and window seals today. I also washed my living room curtains. I cleaned the living room storm door..................and the hallway mirror.........and with boyfriends help I managed to rake all of my front lawn, bag the leaves, and mow 3/4 of the front lawn before the lawnmower died. I also raked the deck, but have yet to bag those leaves.
I feel good for having accomplished a little bit of something.
Monday, November 02, 2009
monday
I did next to nothing today.
Took daughter to school, and picked her up from school..............the rest of the day was spent on the couch watching tv, and I took a nap in my bed............I'd get up to go to the bathroom and think to myself as I passed the dining room, or the kitchen, or the living room, how I should take the curtains down and wash them.......................or wash the wall behind the refrigerator, or clean the woodwork in the bathroom......or rake the yard..............instead I'd just go back to the bed/couch.
I don't feel depressed. I feel tired and unmotivated.
Took daughter to school, and picked her up from school..............the rest of the day was spent on the couch watching tv, and I took a nap in my bed............I'd get up to go to the bathroom and think to myself as I passed the dining room, or the kitchen, or the living room, how I should take the curtains down and wash them.......................or wash the wall behind the refrigerator, or clean the woodwork in the bathroom......or rake the yard..............instead I'd just go back to the bed/couch.
I don't feel depressed. I feel tired and unmotivated.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
sunday
I worked all weekend.
It was fun.
One of the nurses the new owners brought over from a facility they closed
works with me.
We have become the best of work friends and usually have a good time at work............or
support each other on days when things are chaotic.
I'm off work the next 3 days.
I think I'll start my holiday cleaning and organizing..................maybe.
Bubba is doing well.
His doctors are astounded by his ongoing recovery, or so I've been told.
He is talking & walking. His cognitive processes are intact..........he's only able/allowed to have thickened water .......no food or any other drink yet..............he is is craving a large glass full of cold orange juice......so hopefully someday soon he can have his orange juice.........
I was pleased when I heard that my sons went to Joels (the young guy who died from an air embolism) dads house this afternoon to cook and have dinner with him. He goes to my sons baseball games and invited them to dinner.
Maybe it brings him comfort being around the guys who grew up with his son.
It was fun.
One of the nurses the new owners brought over from a facility they closed
works with me.
We have become the best of work friends and usually have a good time at work............or
support each other on days when things are chaotic.
I'm off work the next 3 days.
I think I'll start my holiday cleaning and organizing..................maybe.
Bubba is doing well.
His doctors are astounded by his ongoing recovery, or so I've been told.
He is talking & walking. His cognitive processes are intact..........he's only able/allowed to have thickened water .......no food or any other drink yet..............he is is craving a large glass full of cold orange juice......so hopefully someday soon he can have his orange juice.........
I was pleased when I heard that my sons went to Joels (the young guy who died from an air embolism) dads house this afternoon to cook and have dinner with him. He goes to my sons baseball games and invited them to dinner.
Maybe it brings him comfort being around the guys who grew up with his son.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
tuesday
I've worked 30 hours the past 2 days.
I'm tired and my feet hurt.
I'm off of work though for the next 3 days. So Yay!
Daughter is sleeping on the living room floor.
She went to see "Paranormal" this past weekend........and now she's afraid to sleep upstairs in her bedroom!
I don't have many plans for my 3 days off of work.
I do want to do a little work around my moms house if she needs me to........
It just started raining............like a terrential rain.............so for now I'm going to go to the couch........open the window behind the couch............turn off the light............ lay there & listen to the rain.......maybe drift off to sleep. :O)
I'm tired and my feet hurt.
I'm off of work though for the next 3 days. So Yay!
Daughter is sleeping on the living room floor.
She went to see "Paranormal" this past weekend........and now she's afraid to sleep upstairs in her bedroom!
I don't have many plans for my 3 days off of work.
I do want to do a little work around my moms house if she needs me to........
It just started raining............like a terrential rain.............so for now I'm going to go to the couch........open the window behind the couch............turn off the light............ lay there & listen to the rain.......maybe drift off to sleep. :O)
Sunday, October 25, 2009
mom
It's a beautiful, crisp, sunny day. The sky is blue and the trees are colored with red, gold, and orange leaves.
When I was a young girl my sisters and I would call a day like this "one of those days."
A day like this is a good thing. :O)
My mom is back home today.
They transfused her a 2nd time and that time her counts stayed up.
So home she went..I spent yesterday with her at the hospital.
She seemed in good spirits..........it would be easy to be depressed and full of self pity while
dealing with chronic illness......................she's not.
She is funny.
She is loving.
She is giving.
When I was a young girl my sisters and I would call a day like this "one of those days."
A day like this is a good thing. :O)
My mom is back home today.
They transfused her a 2nd time and that time her counts stayed up.
So home she went..I spent yesterday with her at the hospital.
She seemed in good spirits..........it would be easy to be depressed and full of self pity while
dealing with chronic illness......................she's not.
She is funny.
She is loving.
She is giving.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
friday
Just got in from work.
I've worked 30 hours the past 2days.....But
I have the weekend off. So Yay!
Tomorrow morning I'm going to the hospital with my sister to see my mom.
She had some more bleeding, was transfused, and then admitted because her counts are still dropping.
I've "visited" with her via the telephone the past couple days from work.
But I really want to see her and give her a hug.
My front yard STILL looks like shit.
But boyfriend did some concrete work in the side yard.........so atleast the side yard looks better.
I just hugged and kissed We-Ping my cat. I'm allergic to cats and dogs......and so I'm sneezing and all snotty nosed. Sometimes though I just can't resist!
Her new bed is my middle sons old video chair, in middle sons old bedroom. Now
we refer to it as We-Pings room.
I'm going to bed now.
Good night.
I've worked 30 hours the past 2days.....But
I have the weekend off. So Yay!
Tomorrow morning I'm going to the hospital with my sister to see my mom.
She had some more bleeding, was transfused, and then admitted because her counts are still dropping.
I've "visited" with her via the telephone the past couple days from work.
But I really want to see her and give her a hug.
My front yard STILL looks like shit.
But boyfriend did some concrete work in the side yard.........so atleast the side yard looks better.
I just hugged and kissed We-Ping my cat. I'm allergic to cats and dogs......and so I'm sneezing and all snotty nosed. Sometimes though I just can't resist!
Her new bed is my middle sons old video chair, in middle sons old bedroom. Now
we refer to it as We-Pings room.
I'm going to bed now.
Good night.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
this n that
I was off of work today.
I drove by a thousand houses to check out
landscaping ideas.
I'm going to have to bust a move soon and do
something with my front yard.
It looks like shit.
I drove by "Dudes" house today.
He's the guy who while driving uninsured, and on a suspended
drivers license, wrecked into my son..........and then instead of calling 911 for help for my son,
he called his girlfriend/wife to tell her to come get him.
He's in no legal trouble for running over my son...........
I guess the police aren't going to go after him..........they'll pick him up for something else, and then
see the warrent from this case.............he'll just walk again..........
I drove by a thousand houses to check out
landscaping ideas.
I'm going to have to bust a move soon and do
something with my front yard.
It looks like shit.
I drove by "Dudes" house today.
He's the guy who while driving uninsured, and on a suspended
drivers license, wrecked into my son..........and then instead of calling 911 for help for my son,
he called his girlfriend/wife to tell her to come get him.
He's in no legal trouble for running over my son...........
I guess the police aren't going to go after him..........they'll pick him up for something else, and then
see the warrent from this case.............he'll just walk again..........
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
saturday
So yesterday with boyfriends help daughters bathroom got a new toilet, and is so close to having a sink and vanity ready to use...........................we tried to put in a new ceiling light fixture but, ......the electrical shit in the old fixture is fucked up and we don't know how to unfuck it.
Boyfriends son is an electrician who lives 900 miles away..........hopefully he can guide us through the unfucking process via the telephone.
I had some pretty white curtains packed away in my closet.
I dyed them to match the blue decorative design on the BR floor.
They turned out cute!
The front yard is still a mess.
I'll get to it eventually.
My new medicine is helping, I think.
Or it could be that I'm feeling better because I stopped taking the anti anxiety med.
Or maybe I'm just having a good day. We'll see.
Boyfriends son is an electrician who lives 900 miles away..........hopefully he can guide us through the unfucking process via the telephone.
I had some pretty white curtains packed away in my closet.
I dyed them to match the blue decorative design on the BR floor.
They turned out cute!
The front yard is still a mess.
I'll get to it eventually.
My new medicine is helping, I think.
Or it could be that I'm feeling better because I stopped taking the anti anxiety med.
Or maybe I'm just having a good day. We'll see.
Friday, October 16, 2009
friday
So it takes me awhile lately to complete projects around the house.
I work on them when I feel like it, or I sleep.
Yesterday I slept.
The day before yesterday I shopped for the toilet and vanity for
daughters bathroom.
The toilet was $118.00 on sale for $28.00 at Lowes.
I was thrilled. I had budgeted 100.00 bucks for a toilet. So Yay!
The vanity is a double door white thingy............and I got a pretty beveled mirror for
above the sink.
I might spend the day working on the BR.
And then there's the front yard area where the wall was tore down that
still needs work.
I might work in the yard instead of the BR..............................................................and then there's always the possibility that I'll spend the day in bed watching tv and sleeping.
Daughter took her drivers test yesterday.
She passed with flying colors.
It's a really big day when you get your drivers license.
So yay for daughter!
I work on them when I feel like it, or I sleep.
Yesterday I slept.
The day before yesterday I shopped for the toilet and vanity for
daughters bathroom.
The toilet was $118.00 on sale for $28.00 at Lowes.
I was thrilled. I had budgeted 100.00 bucks for a toilet. So Yay!
The vanity is a double door white thingy............and I got a pretty beveled mirror for
above the sink.
I might spend the day working on the BR.
And then there's the front yard area where the wall was tore down that
still needs work.
I might work in the yard instead of the BR..............................................................and then there's always the possibility that I'll spend the day in bed watching tv and sleeping.
Daughter took her drivers test yesterday.
She passed with flying colors.
It's a really big day when you get your drivers license.
So yay for daughter!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
fuck em
Today is one of my off days.
I could do a million things but
I'm thinking I'll just go back to bed.
I've been unusually vocal about anything I might be feeling at any given moment. Always the peace keeper in the past, and now if I feel it, I speak it.
I'm not making too many people happy.
I went to my doctor yesterday. I told him that the anti-depressant
he prescribed for me several weeks ago wouldn't allow me to sleep plus it gave me the chills and restless legs.
He prescribed a different anti-depressant.
I know there are many people out there with Tom Cruise like opinions
about taking antidepressants. Fuck em.
It's my life.
I'm not a massicast.I've met people who have been depressed all their lives. They're either massicasts, or they're ignorant.
If it will help (and I know it will because i've been a nurse for atleast 20 years and i've seen it help) I will take it!
I could do a million things but
I'm thinking I'll just go back to bed.
I've been unusually vocal about anything I might be feeling at any given moment. Always the peace keeper in the past, and now if I feel it, I speak it.
I'm not making too many people happy.
I went to my doctor yesterday. I told him that the anti-depressant
he prescribed for me several weeks ago wouldn't allow me to sleep plus it gave me the chills and restless legs.
He prescribed a different anti-depressant.
I know there are many people out there with Tom Cruise like opinions
about taking antidepressants. Fuck em.
It's my life.
I'm not a massicast.I've met people who have been depressed all their lives. They're either massicasts, or they're ignorant.
If it will help (and I know it will because i've been a nurse for atleast 20 years and i've seen it help) I will take it!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
this n that
It's beautiful outside today though chilly.
My plan is to hang my new shutters, and work on
the area where I tore
down the brick wall.
I need to have a yard sale......and was going to do it today, but boyfriend told
me to plan it first. I get carried away some of the time................so I guess I'll plan the damn thing.
After my sons move some crap for me out of the dining room and living room
I can start tearing out carpeting, and staining woodwork.
I need to get going though because
I want it finished before Thanksgiving.
My sister had a breast reduction.
She went from a 34dd to a 34 c.
Keep in mind she's only 5'2 and weighs about 109.
She came over last evening to ask me to
look at her breasts.
She's concerned because the right breast has more swelling
than the left .......the swelling is causing dimpling in the right breast and of course makes the right breast look bigger.
When all's said and done, I think they look great, young, and perky..........it was time for those
ugly 34dd's to hit the road!
My new nick name for her is TittyGirl.
PS...................there was an investigation at my work by the State concerning the death of a patient. The patients family member asked them to investigate.
I was notified that the investigation was taking place as I was barn looking with boyfriend..........I had to pull to the side of a country road to talk to my bosses, bosses, boss................and to then speak with the state investigator.
The investigation was stressful. I was scared................and then I was just plain old angry. Wish I could say more about what went on, but I can't.
The complaints were unsubstantiated.........................and Friday my administrator told me I did an excellent job in dealing with said residents acute illness and subsequent death............state thought so too.
And this has nothing to do with the investigation. It happened the day before the investigation started....... I was offered the asst director of nursing position. But only until December/our state inspection. I did it last year.............and we had a pretty great inspection.
This year though.....
I turned it down.
I don't want the responsibility.
I want to do my job and go home.
I want a simple, calm, uncomplicated life. That's not always what I get, but it's what I want......taking an adon position would not allow for what i want and need....
and then last but not least..............Bubba is in a rehab hosp. ...........he is awake and off the respirator........for now that's all i'm going to say.........except for that I love him.......
My plan is to hang my new shutters, and work on
the area where I tore
down the brick wall.
I need to have a yard sale......and was going to do it today, but boyfriend told
me to plan it first. I get carried away some of the time................so I guess I'll plan the damn thing.
After my sons move some crap for me out of the dining room and living room
I can start tearing out carpeting, and staining woodwork.
I need to get going though because
I want it finished before Thanksgiving.
My sister had a breast reduction.
She went from a 34dd to a 34 c.
Keep in mind she's only 5'2 and weighs about 109.
She came over last evening to ask me to
look at her breasts.
She's concerned because the right breast has more swelling
than the left .......the swelling is causing dimpling in the right breast and of course makes the right breast look bigger.
When all's said and done, I think they look great, young, and perky..........it was time for those
ugly 34dd's to hit the road!
My new nick name for her is TittyGirl.
PS...................there was an investigation at my work by the State concerning the death of a patient. The patients family member asked them to investigate.
I was notified that the investigation was taking place as I was barn looking with boyfriend..........I had to pull to the side of a country road to talk to my bosses, bosses, boss................and to then speak with the state investigator.
The investigation was stressful. I was scared................and then I was just plain old angry. Wish I could say more about what went on, but I can't.
The complaints were unsubstantiated.........................and Friday my administrator told me I did an excellent job in dealing with said residents acute illness and subsequent death............state thought so too.
And this has nothing to do with the investigation. It happened the day before the investigation started....... I was offered the asst director of nursing position. But only until December/our state inspection. I did it last year.............and we had a pretty great inspection.
This year though.....
I turned it down.
I don't want the responsibility.
I want to do my job and go home.
I want a simple, calm, uncomplicated life. That's not always what I get, but it's what I want......taking an adon position would not allow for what i want and need....
and then last but not least..............Bubba is in a rehab hosp. ...........he is awake and off the respirator........for now that's all i'm going to say.........except for that I love him.......
Saturday, October 10, 2009
bad teachers
I woke up this morning thinking about Mr. B.
He was a substitute teacher at the high school I attended. I liked him. He seemed nice, and funny.
One day I stayed after school for some activity........after the activity
I headed to the bus stop a block away from my school. While walking up the sidewalk, Mr. B
pulled up and offered me a ride home.
I politely told him no, but thanks. He parked his car, got out of the car, and jogged a little to catch up to me.
He again asked if he could drive me home. I told him no.
He was persistant....he even argued all the reasons I should allow him to drive me home........at some point he demanded I get in his car.
I was afraid. But I knew I could out run him, and I had the benefit of being on a busy city street.
Eventually he gave up trying to get me in his car.............and he went away.
He'd still show up at our school on occasion to teach, but he wouldn't look at me, and never spoke to me again. Fuck him.
So for whatever reason, I woke this mnorning thinking of him...............................and from there I thought of my third grade teacher.
She was young and hip. She had all the great clothes................and drove a convertible, yellow VW bug..............I was her pet...........so was my friend Lisa.
Luckily we were her pets.
We could have been like a boy named Tom.
He too was in our 3rd grade class.
He was an unkept kid who wore torn, old, hand me down clothes.
He looked dirty.......may not have been, but he loooked it............... I don't remember ever seeing him playing with another child. I just remember him being alone, and abused.
Even today I think of Tom and feel sad for him.
He was Ms Third Grade's beating post.
Atleast weekly she'd call him to the front of the class,
have him bend & hold his ankles.................and then she'd paddle him with the block of woood...............
if she didn't beat his ass, literally, she'd grab hold of his fingers, turn his hand palm side up, and beat it with a ruler.
She enjoyed humiliating, and physically hurting him. She liked watching him cry.
Week after week the rest of us would watch her unleash her anger on him.
I still wish I could apologize to him for not being his friend...............and for not telling someone what was happening .............................................I think about him on occasion and hope he's having a good life.
He was a substitute teacher at the high school I attended. I liked him. He seemed nice, and funny.
One day I stayed after school for some activity........after the activity
I headed to the bus stop a block away from my school. While walking up the sidewalk, Mr. B
pulled up and offered me a ride home.
I politely told him no, but thanks. He parked his car, got out of the car, and jogged a little to catch up to me.
He again asked if he could drive me home. I told him no.
He was persistant....he even argued all the reasons I should allow him to drive me home........at some point he demanded I get in his car.
I was afraid. But I knew I could out run him, and I had the benefit of being on a busy city street.
Eventually he gave up trying to get me in his car.............and he went away.
He'd still show up at our school on occasion to teach, but he wouldn't look at me, and never spoke to me again. Fuck him.
So for whatever reason, I woke this mnorning thinking of him...............................and from there I thought of my third grade teacher.
She was young and hip. She had all the great clothes................and drove a convertible, yellow VW bug..............I was her pet...........so was my friend Lisa.
Luckily we were her pets.
We could have been like a boy named Tom.
He too was in our 3rd grade class.
He was an unkept kid who wore torn, old, hand me down clothes.
He looked dirty.......may not have been, but he loooked it............... I don't remember ever seeing him playing with another child. I just remember him being alone, and abused.
Even today I think of Tom and feel sad for him.
He was Ms Third Grade's beating post.
Atleast weekly she'd call him to the front of the class,
have him bend & hold his ankles.................and then she'd paddle him with the block of woood...............
if she didn't beat his ass, literally, she'd grab hold of his fingers, turn his hand palm side up, and beat it with a ruler.
She enjoyed humiliating, and physically hurting him. She liked watching him cry.
Week after week the rest of us would watch her unleash her anger on him.
I still wish I could apologize to him for not being his friend...............and for not telling someone what was happening .............................................I think about him on occasion and hope he's having a good life.
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
bubba
Grand Jury To Consider Boone County Beating Case
Joseph Pierce Police described a brutal beating in court today that has left a Boone County man unconscious for more than a week.
Joseph Pierce faces first degree assault charges for what police say was his routine... drinking and picking fights.
(My nephew) is in intensive care with multiple skull fractures. His friend, , is awaiting surgery for a broken cheekbone.
Local 12's Joe Webb was in the courtroom today.
Bubbas family says they aren't sure what the future holds for George. They say doctors tell them he has some brain damage from the beating he took outside a Hebron bar ten days ago. The man, police say, beat him and a friend is still locked up and his case is now headed to a Boone County Grand Jury.
In cuffs and shackles, Joseph Pierce listened as Detective Tracy Watson described a brutal beating outside the Briarwood reception hall. She says Bubba and friend were leaving at closing time when Pierce made a crack about Bubba's long, blonde hair. Watson says Bubba threw no punches and tried to walk away, but Pierce hit him and knocked him to the ground.
Det. Tracy Watson, Boone County Sheriff's Office: "Witnesses say, then Mr. Bubba fell to the ground, Mr. Pierce jumped on him, stomping and kicking him repeatedly about the head and face and chest area."
The detective says, by the time two people pulled Pierce off of him, Bubba had suffered 3 skull fractures, a collapsed lung and four fractures to his eye socket. She says doctors removed a piece of his skull to relieve pressure on his brain.
Tonight on Local 12 Live at 6 pm, we'll talk to Bubba's parents who just can't believe how their lives changed so quickly.
Boone County District Judge Michael Collins bound the case over to the grand jury. Joseph Pierce is being held in the Boone County Jail on 50-thousand dollars bond.
Joseph Pierce Police described a brutal beating in court today that has left a Boone County man unconscious for more than a week.
Joseph Pierce faces first degree assault charges for what police say was his routine... drinking and picking fights.
(My nephew) is in intensive care with multiple skull fractures. His friend, , is awaiting surgery for a broken cheekbone.
Local 12's Joe Webb was in the courtroom today.
Bubbas family says they aren't sure what the future holds for George. They say doctors tell them he has some brain damage from the beating he took outside a Hebron bar ten days ago. The man, police say, beat him and a friend is still locked up and his case is now headed to a Boone County Grand Jury.
In cuffs and shackles, Joseph Pierce listened as Detective Tracy Watson described a brutal beating outside the Briarwood reception hall. She says Bubba and friend were leaving at closing time when Pierce made a crack about Bubba's long, blonde hair. Watson says Bubba threw no punches and tried to walk away, but Pierce hit him and knocked him to the ground.
Det. Tracy Watson, Boone County Sheriff's Office: "Witnesses say, then Mr. Bubba fell to the ground, Mr. Pierce jumped on him, stomping and kicking him repeatedly about the head and face and chest area."
The detective says, by the time two people pulled Pierce off of him, Bubba had suffered 3 skull fractures, a collapsed lung and four fractures to his eye socket. She says doctors removed a piece of his skull to relieve pressure on his brain.
Tonight on Local 12 Live at 6 pm, we'll talk to Bubba's parents who just can't believe how their lives changed so quickly.
Boone County District Judge Michael Collins bound the case over to the grand jury. Joseph Pierce is being held in the Boone County Jail on 50-thousand dollars bond.
Glenn, R U still around???
When I saw this I said to my boyfriend "Ut oh! I wonder what Glenn would say.
stone fencing
Stone fence built before the Civil war by Irish Masons?
The picture doesn't do it justice..............
farm animals
I love the picture of the cows..........I love cows, PERIOD!
I think they're big, cute, and they mind their own business.
barn art
More tobacco drying in the barn.
Tha painting over the barn door is called a Barn Quilt..........it seems to be all the rave out in the county.
Tha painting over the barn door is called a Barn Quilt..........it seems to be all the rave out in the county.
our day
Boyfriend woke me early this morning to see if I still wanted to go barn looking.............I did want to go........I wanted a day away from my recent reality.........I was giving myself permission to get away, to have some fun, and some time to decompress.
So we showered, had coffee, took daughter to school, and then away we went to barn land.
I was excited...........
In the following blogs I'll post pictures from our day................I don't know how to get them all in this post......
So we showered, had coffee, took daughter to school, and then away we went to barn land.
I was excited...........
In the following blogs I'll post pictures from our day................I don't know how to get them all in this post......
Monday, October 05, 2009
old barns and pollyanna
I love barns....always have......like the way they look.....the way they smell.................when I was a young girl I remember taking long rides in the country with my dad. We'd stop to explore old barns, and abandoned houses.
They held mysteries..........I loved trying to figure it out...to put together the picture/story of the family who used to live there.........and exploring the barns for treasures....there was always one to be found.......even if it was just a page from an old book.
I'm going to ask boyfriend if he'll spend the day with me tomorrow looking at barns.
They attempted to wake Bubba from a drug induced sleep but turned back because Bubs heart rate went crazy.
My boys, and my exhusband believe Clinton will wake and be the same as before. And the Pollyanna part of me tells me "Well! It's possible!"
For now I'm trying really hard to ignore the logical, practical part of my thinking.......I hear it, but I'm just going to go ahead with what Pollyanna is saying until/if that bubble bursts.
They held mysteries..........I loved trying to figure it out...to put together the picture/story of the family who used to live there.........and exploring the barns for treasures....there was always one to be found.......even if it was just a page from an old book.
I'm going to ask boyfriend if he'll spend the day with me tomorrow looking at barns.
They attempted to wake Bubba from a drug induced sleep but turned back because Bubs heart rate went crazy.
My boys, and my exhusband believe Clinton will wake and be the same as before. And the Pollyanna part of me tells me "Well! It's possible!"
For now I'm trying really hard to ignore the logical, practical part of my thinking.......I hear it, but I'm just going to go ahead with what Pollyanna is saying until/if that bubble bursts.
Friday, October 02, 2009
Big Eared Pierce not worth a dime?
I was driving home from taking daughter to school this morning feeling optimistic about the day ahead of me. I was actually in the mood to clean & was planning in my head what room to start with first............I was also thinking about the big H.S.. football game tonight. The winner of the game gets to take to their school "The Bell" and have the year and their teams name engraved on it. It's been 11 years since our team has taken the bell.........the buzz this year though is that we're gonna take it..................................so while thinking about cleaning and the big game, Bubba came to mind......and I thought about how he's in that hospital bed with his skull cap off. I choked back tears....(it's stupid to choke back tears when you're alone in a car. I mean what's the point?)................but it made my heart and stomach ache even more........I opted to just let go and cry.............................. then I remembered how big eared, ugly, mother fucker is sitting in jail because apparently, and this is just my opinion, but apparently Big Eared Uglies family doesn't think he's worth the $5000.00 it would take to get him out of jail. The thought of him sitting in jail gave me pleasure.
When I got home from taking daughter to school I made a couple loafs of banana bread.......one with walnuts, one with walnuts and cranberries. The cheerleaders are having a bake sale today.
It looks and smells pretty good.
Son got home from work lastnight around 1am. He was running the vacuum at 2.............:O)
When I got home from taking daughter to school I made a couple loafs of banana bread.......one with walnuts, one with walnuts and cranberries. The cheerleaders are having a bake sale today.
It looks and smells pretty good.
Son got home from work lastnight around 1am. He was running the vacuum at 2.............:O)
Thursday, October 01, 2009
thursday
I went shopping today. I bought some serving bowls for Thanksgiving dinner, and cloth napkins.
I also bought a new table cloth for the dining room table, and candles.
I bought a book to read if I can't sleep tonight. It's "The Book Of Bright Ideas." Looks like it might be pretty good.
I callled my oldest son this evening while he 's at work.I left a message on his phone telling him that he is to come home from work tonight and clean his room............that would include bringing his dirty dishes upstairs to the kitchen sink.......putting his dirty towels in the laundry, picking up all his dirty clothes, changing his bed linens ect.
His room looks disgusting.
I had to go in his room to get to a storage room to get my Halloween decorations. I wasn't nosing around.
I also left a message telling him to get up earlier than usual tomorrow because I expect him to mow the lawn before he goes to work.
When he moved back home he agreed he'd cut the grass for me every weekend. It's all I asked from him............well that and for him to start saving some money. He has missed cutting the grass the past 2 weekends. Pisses me off. He should live up to his responsibilities...............and he's more than old enough to clean up after hisself. What the fuck?!
I want it done, and I want it done tomorrow........ that's what I told him.
I went to Lowes today and picked out carpeting for my living rm, dining rm., and hallway.
I couldn't decide on a color. It's between Cheyenne Rock and Light Chocolate. We'll see.
Nothing new to report about Bubba.
I was looking at the picture of the guy who attacked him. He's one ugly, big eared, dumb looking mother fucker!
I also bought a new table cloth for the dining room table, and candles.
I bought a book to read if I can't sleep tonight. It's "The Book Of Bright Ideas." Looks like it might be pretty good.
I callled my oldest son this evening while he 's at work.I left a message on his phone telling him that he is to come home from work tonight and clean his room............that would include bringing his dirty dishes upstairs to the kitchen sink.......putting his dirty towels in the laundry, picking up all his dirty clothes, changing his bed linens ect.
His room looks disgusting.
I had to go in his room to get to a storage room to get my Halloween decorations. I wasn't nosing around.
I also left a message telling him to get up earlier than usual tomorrow because I expect him to mow the lawn before he goes to work.
When he moved back home he agreed he'd cut the grass for me every weekend. It's all I asked from him............well that and for him to start saving some money. He has missed cutting the grass the past 2 weekends. Pisses me off. He should live up to his responsibilities...............and he's more than old enough to clean up after hisself. What the fuck?!
I want it done, and I want it done tomorrow........ that's what I told him.
I went to Lowes today and picked out carpeting for my living rm, dining rm., and hallway.
I couldn't decide on a color. It's between Cheyenne Rock and Light Chocolate. We'll see.
Nothing new to report about Bubba.
I was looking at the picture of the guy who attacked him. He's one ugly, big eared, dumb looking mother fucker!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
dude needs to pay the piper
So I ended up sleeping away the day.
I got out of bed at 4pm...................I called the police to tell them that the guy who ran over my son, and who has a bench warrent, lives at the same address as the one on the police report......and that he continues to drive the off white cadillac seville even though he is uninsured and has a suspended license.
I reminded them that he's had a warrent since August 18th.............and I let them know that one of their own cops lives 2 doors down from Dude. I expressed my irritation that they've yet to arrest him. Granted I know it's not like a serial murder case. But Dude hurt my son while breaking the law............... and then broke it again. The Mother Fucker needs to pay the Piper......
I also called the DMV today to report that Dude is using Ohio tags while living in Kentucky. That means he's not paying Kentucky property tax. Ohioans do not paY property tax on their vehicles............The DMV gave me a number to call in Frankfort Ky. to report Dude..........and so I did report him....finally........it felt good. He's gonna be fucked and that makes me happy.
I got out of bed at 4pm...................I called the police to tell them that the guy who ran over my son, and who has a bench warrent, lives at the same address as the one on the police report......and that he continues to drive the off white cadillac seville even though he is uninsured and has a suspended license.
I reminded them that he's had a warrent since August 18th.............and I let them know that one of their own cops lives 2 doors down from Dude. I expressed my irritation that they've yet to arrest him. Granted I know it's not like a serial murder case. But Dude hurt my son while breaking the law............... and then broke it again. The Mother Fucker needs to pay the Piper......
I also called the DMV today to report that Dude is using Ohio tags while living in Kentucky. That means he's not paying Kentucky property tax. Ohioans do not paY property tax on their vehicles............The DMV gave me a number to call in Frankfort Ky. to report Dude..........and so I did report him....finally........it felt good. He's gonna be fucked and that makes me happy.
wed
I just ate a half dozen homemade chocolate chip cookies.
My son has bronchitis and strep throat.
I made the cookies for him to make him feel better and was planning on dropping them off
to him at his dads house.
Luckily I made 2 dozen.
Not sure what I'm going to do today.
I'm thinking about doing some work in the yard.
I think I'm going to have to build a wall to replace
the wall we recently knocked down/dug out.
Boyfriend says I don't need to build a wall & that
he doesn't understand my logic.
I told him he doesn't understand my logic, or where I'm coming from because he is NOT
a woman......nor was he ever a single parent. So
I broke it down for him.
I think he's biting his tongue.
It's
about time someone else does.
I'm still a smoker who no longer smokes.
I'm not sure how long it's been..........I'm thinking it's been 10-12 weeks.
My nephew Bubba has pneumonia in both of his lungs.
He's still on life support.
They have him under an alias..................and he has a guard outside
his hosp. room.
The hosp. is only allowing his mother, my middle son, his sister, his father and one aunt to visit. PERIOD.
The rest of the family gets info. from the visiting family members.
I just want to hug him, and tell him I love him. I want our Bubba back..........so
I pray from the bottom of my soul, I hope with all of my heart, and I wish with all of my might.
It's all that I know to do.
My son has bronchitis and strep throat.
I made the cookies for him to make him feel better and was planning on dropping them off
to him at his dads house.
Luckily I made 2 dozen.
Not sure what I'm going to do today.
I'm thinking about doing some work in the yard.
I think I'm going to have to build a wall to replace
the wall we recently knocked down/dug out.
Boyfriend says I don't need to build a wall & that
he doesn't understand my logic.
I told him he doesn't understand my logic, or where I'm coming from because he is NOT
a woman......nor was he ever a single parent. So
I broke it down for him.
I think he's biting his tongue.
It's
about time someone else does.
I'm still a smoker who no longer smokes.
I'm not sure how long it's been..........I'm thinking it's been 10-12 weeks.
My nephew Bubba has pneumonia in both of his lungs.
He's still on life support.
They have him under an alias..................and he has a guard outside
his hosp. room.
The hosp. is only allowing his mother, my middle son, his sister, his father and one aunt to visit. PERIOD.
The rest of the family gets info. from the visiting family members.
I just want to hug him, and tell him I love him. I want our Bubba back..........so
I pray from the bottom of my soul, I hope with all of my heart, and I wish with all of my might.
It's all that I know to do.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
funeral day
The funeral for Joel, our family friend who passed away Friday was yesterday.
He was 23.............way too young to die ......................................his family had a "graveside" service though he was creamated, and not buried.
The pain on his fathers face broke my heart. When he told me though how the boys who grew up with Joel had been coming to his apartment daily since Joel died, and cooking with Joels dad to pass the time...........made me smile.........made him smile to.
When his younger brother hugged me and said "I love you" to me I felt so incredibly sad, and helpless.
The Christmas gift I gave to Joel 5 years ago(a picture of all the boys who grew up together in our neighborhood) was on display with other photos at the funeral. Joels mother pointed to the "gift" picture
and told me it was one of Joels few possessions.
I cried.....
We hugged.......................and I wondered to myself how she was managing to survive. I doubt I could do it.
He was 23.............way too young to die ......................................his family had a "graveside" service though he was creamated, and not buried.
The pain on his fathers face broke my heart. When he told me though how the boys who grew up with Joel had been coming to his apartment daily since Joel died, and cooking with Joels dad to pass the time...........made me smile.........made him smile to.
When his younger brother hugged me and said "I love you" to me I felt so incredibly sad, and helpless.
The Christmas gift I gave to Joel 5 years ago(a picture of all the boys who grew up together in our neighborhood) was on display with other photos at the funeral. Joels mother pointed to the "gift" picture
and told me it was one of Joels few possessions.
I cried.....
We hugged.......................and I wondered to myself how she was managing to survive. I doubt I could do it.
assholes
Contact:Tom Scheben, SpokesmanPublic Information Services859.334.3543tscheben@boonecountyky.org
September 28, 2009
On September 27, 2009 at 12:40 a.m. investigators arrested a Hebron, Kentucky man for the brutal, unprovoked attack of two men in the parking lot of The Briarwood, a reception hall/bar located in the 2100 block of Petersburg Road, which occurred some 22 hours earlier.
George Carmac III, 27 of Southgate, Kentucky was found unconscious in the parking lot by an employee on September 26, 2009 at 4:30 a.m. Carmac was taken to Saint Elizabeth Hospital (Florence) and then transferred to University Hospital where he underwent surgery for his life-threatening injuries. Carmac’s friend, Josh Lindsay, 27 of Hebron, Kentucky was also treated at University Hospital for his injuries.
Detectives who were called out on the case Saturday morning worked throughout the day and evening gathering facts. Their investigation led them back to The Briarwood where they located and arrested Joseph Pierce, 22 of Hebron, Kentucky for two (2) counts of Assault 1st degree, a class B felony punishable by 10–20 years in the state penitentiary. Pierce is lodged in the Boone County Detention Center in lieu of a $50,000 bond.
While the case is still under investigation, detectives believe Carmac and Linsday were attacked by Pierce and others as they walked out of the bar. Pierce continued to kick both men in the head after they were down.
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September 28, 2009
On September 27, 2009 at 12:40 a.m. investigators arrested a Hebron, Kentucky man for the brutal, unprovoked attack of two men in the parking lot of The Briarwood, a reception hall/bar located in the 2100 block of Petersburg Road, which occurred some 22 hours earlier.
George Carmac III, 27 of Southgate, Kentucky was found unconscious in the parking lot by an employee on September 26, 2009 at 4:30 a.m. Carmac was taken to Saint Elizabeth Hospital (Florence) and then transferred to University Hospital where he underwent surgery for his life-threatening injuries. Carmac’s friend, Josh Lindsay, 27 of Hebron, Kentucky was also treated at University Hospital for his injuries.
Detectives who were called out on the case Saturday morning worked throughout the day and evening gathering facts. Their investigation led them back to The Briarwood where they located and arrested Joseph Pierce, 22 of Hebron, Kentucky for two (2) counts of Assault 1st degree, a class B felony punishable by 10–20 years in the state penitentiary. Pierce is lodged in the Boone County Detention Center in lieu of a $50,000 bond.
While the case is still under investigation, detectives believe Carmac and Linsday were attacked by Pierce and others as they walked out of the bar. Pierce continued to kick both men in the head after they were down.
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Sunday, September 27, 2009
sunday
I can't sleep.
I'm tried but am too restless.
I just wrote a letter to daughters school principal.
I'm pissed at one of daughters teachers, wrote her a note......didn't like her response, so I wrote this guy..............................................I've decided I will no longer bite my tongue. Not just when it comes to daughters school...........but in all areas of my life.
I will be more assertive.
I will no longer worry whether or not people like me. Because that's usually the reason I keep my mouth shut. I'm worried people won't like me. Not so much anymore. I really just don't give a shit anymore.
If I have something to say, I'm going to say it.
I don't know if anyone reads this blog.
If you do....... would you do me a favor and say a little prayer for Clinton?
Thank you.
I'm tried but am too restless.
I just wrote a letter to daughters school principal.
I'm pissed at one of daughters teachers, wrote her a note......didn't like her response, so I wrote this guy..............................................I've decided I will no longer bite my tongue. Not just when it comes to daughters school...........but in all areas of my life.
I will be more assertive.
I will no longer worry whether or not people like me. Because that's usually the reason I keep my mouth shut. I'm worried people won't like me. Not so much anymore. I really just don't give a shit anymore.
If I have something to say, I'm going to say it.
I don't know if anyone reads this blog.
If you do....... would you do me a favor and say a little prayer for Clinton?
Thank you.
Sunday
I slept in today because I didn't want to face the world. My nephew by marriage is on life support.
While sleeping in I dreamt that older sister and I moved into an apartment
I lived in with my ex-husbnad before buying this house.
In the dream I was excited to be back at the apartment but gave no thought to having lived there with my exhusband. I think in the dream I had lived there by myslef.
I remember feeling very happy/excited about showing my sister around the building, and telling her about it's history.....(the building was a mansion built in the 1800's by a guy who made whiskey)............................and in the dream, 2 gay guys who were in a rock band named Piecies, lived upstairs from us, and I knew they'd become our best friends. I was excited about the future.
I woke and felt greatful that my phone hadn't rung through the night.
I knew it meant my nephew was still alive.
Son just left my bedroom. He told me the detectives have a guy in custody. He tells the following story to the police.
Apparently my nephew and his friend were leaving a bar.
A group of maybe 4 guys were outside the bar.
They called my nephew Goldilocks.
He has pretty,curly, blond hair.
Nephew and his friend ignored the guys and continued their
walk to nephews friends truck...............as they made it to the truck 2 of the 4 guys
jumped them...................they left nephews friend in the truck knocked out, and after nephew was knocked to the ground, they kicked him in the face and head multiple times.................nephew and friend laid there unconscious for several hours..........nephews brain was swelling. The breathing center of his brain is damaged,..............the frontal portion of his brain is also damaged..........he has multiple facial fractures, will lose an eye and his lung is damaged.......all because he has curly blond hair......................................................the neurologist has told my family, and my nephews family that most people with nephews injuries die. They've removed two pieces of skull to allow for swelling...........
I keep praying to and begging God to let him live, and to let his brain recover/heal...............................I don't know what else to do.
My heart hurts....it aches in my chest and in my stomach....................... my nephew, Bubba is what we call him, and what we've called him since he was a little guy in diapers........his real name is George Clinton.........he's an electrician.........one of the most polite, respectful, young guys I've ever known. A great person who would never hurt another human.
Maybe we need to teach our children it's okay to hurt another person if they're hurting you first...........not raise them to be so respectful and polite that they don't know when to tell an asshole to go fuck themselves..........or if someone hits you in the head, you hit them in the head, harder.
Maybe turning the other cheek isn't such a great thing to teach.
Where was God while my was nephew was turning the other cheek?
While sleeping in I dreamt that older sister and I moved into an apartment
I lived in with my ex-husbnad before buying this house.
In the dream I was excited to be back at the apartment but gave no thought to having lived there with my exhusband. I think in the dream I had lived there by myslef.
I remember feeling very happy/excited about showing my sister around the building, and telling her about it's history.....(the building was a mansion built in the 1800's by a guy who made whiskey)............................and in the dream, 2 gay guys who were in a rock band named Piecies, lived upstairs from us, and I knew they'd become our best friends. I was excited about the future.
I woke and felt greatful that my phone hadn't rung through the night.
I knew it meant my nephew was still alive.
Son just left my bedroom. He told me the detectives have a guy in custody. He tells the following story to the police.
Apparently my nephew and his friend were leaving a bar.
A group of maybe 4 guys were outside the bar.
They called my nephew Goldilocks.
He has pretty,curly, blond hair.
Nephew and his friend ignored the guys and continued their
walk to nephews friends truck...............as they made it to the truck 2 of the 4 guys
jumped them...................they left nephews friend in the truck knocked out, and after nephew was knocked to the ground, they kicked him in the face and head multiple times.................nephew and friend laid there unconscious for several hours..........nephews brain was swelling. The breathing center of his brain is damaged,..............the frontal portion of his brain is also damaged..........he has multiple facial fractures, will lose an eye and his lung is damaged.......all because he has curly blond hair......................................................the neurologist has told my family, and my nephews family that most people with nephews injuries die. They've removed two pieces of skull to allow for swelling...........
I keep praying to and begging God to let him live, and to let his brain recover/heal...............................I don't know what else to do.
My heart hurts....it aches in my chest and in my stomach....................... my nephew, Bubba is what we call him, and what we've called him since he was a little guy in diapers........his real name is George Clinton.........he's an electrician.........one of the most polite, respectful, young guys I've ever known. A great person who would never hurt another human.
Maybe we need to teach our children it's okay to hurt another person if they're hurting you first...........not raise them to be so respectful and polite that they don't know when to tell an asshole to go fuck themselves..........or if someone hits you in the head, you hit them in the head, harder.
Maybe turning the other cheek isn't such a great thing to teach.
Where was God while my was nephew was turning the other cheek?
Friday, September 25, 2009
friday
A family friend died today.
He was a friend to my sons.
His mother and I would take turns having my 2 sons and my daughter spend the night at her house and then her 2 sons and daughter would spend the night at my house...................the kids have known each other most of their lives.............they lived down the street from us most of that time....................their oldest son started abusing pills from his fathers medicine cabinet a few years ago, atleast that's what the boys have told me.........................slowly all the guys that grew up with him, including my sons, pulled away from him. Like most addicts, he became a liar and a thief. They still loved the friend they knew, but they didn't like the person he had become.
I ran in to him a year and a half or two years ago. We chatted for several minutes. I told him that when he was ready to quit drugs he could call me and I would help. He smiled and agreed. I actually believed that someday he would call....................instead he is dead from an apparent air embolism introduced while shooting dope into his vein.
I've been crying on and off since 5:30 this morning. I keep wishing I could turn back the clock so that I can stop all of this from happening. I want him to be alive. I want him to have the time to pull his life together, to get the help he neeeds........to be able to be the big brother he was born to be. I keep thinking of his younger brother and how he used to look up to this guy................and how in the past couple years he has pretended not to care or worry about his older brother even though he really did with all of his heart........................I cry everytime I think about him..................I know he's hurting like never before. There's nothing to be done to make things better.
I just can't believe this has happened. I would do just about anything to change it.
I am so pissed at God right now.................
He was a friend to my sons.
His mother and I would take turns having my 2 sons and my daughter spend the night at her house and then her 2 sons and daughter would spend the night at my house...................the kids have known each other most of their lives.............they lived down the street from us most of that time....................their oldest son started abusing pills from his fathers medicine cabinet a few years ago, atleast that's what the boys have told me.........................slowly all the guys that grew up with him, including my sons, pulled away from him. Like most addicts, he became a liar and a thief. They still loved the friend they knew, but they didn't like the person he had become.
I ran in to him a year and a half or two years ago. We chatted for several minutes. I told him that when he was ready to quit drugs he could call me and I would help. He smiled and agreed. I actually believed that someday he would call....................instead he is dead from an apparent air embolism introduced while shooting dope into his vein.
I've been crying on and off since 5:30 this morning. I keep wishing I could turn back the clock so that I can stop all of this from happening. I want him to be alive. I want him to have the time to pull his life together, to get the help he neeeds........to be able to be the big brother he was born to be. I keep thinking of his younger brother and how he used to look up to this guy................and how in the past couple years he has pretended not to care or worry about his older brother even though he really did with all of his heart........................I cry everytime I think about him..................I know he's hurting like never before. There's nothing to be done to make things better.
I just can't believe this has happened. I would do just about anything to change it.
I am so pissed at God right now.................
Thursday, September 24, 2009
thursday
I have to work a 12 hour shift tomorrow.
I wish I was off so I could go to the homecoming day parade.
It's important to my daughter. So it's important to me too.
I will be off though Homecoming night. So I"ll be there while she gets dressed for the big dance.................after the dance several of her friends are coming here to build a big camp fire and camp out in our backyard. It should be fun for them. :O)
I worked 14 hours today........and to boot, the air conditioning in our building was down..........I feel grubby and tired.
My 10 y/o nephew has the Swine flu. I'm worried sick even though I know he'll be ok........he should be ok, huh?
And then my 2nd oldest sister looks like a walking skeleton. She looks worse than she looked several months ago.
I called her and asked her if she has hiv, cancer, an eating disorder, or if she's using drugs................she said no to all of my choices.
She's lying.
I feel helpless.
I wish I was off so I could go to the homecoming day parade.
It's important to my daughter. So it's important to me too.
I will be off though Homecoming night. So I"ll be there while she gets dressed for the big dance.................after the dance several of her friends are coming here to build a big camp fire and camp out in our backyard. It should be fun for them. :O)
I worked 14 hours today........and to boot, the air conditioning in our building was down..........I feel grubby and tired.
My 10 y/o nephew has the Swine flu. I'm worried sick even though I know he'll be ok........he should be ok, huh?
And then my 2nd oldest sister looks like a walking skeleton. She looks worse than she looked several months ago.
I called her and asked her if she has hiv, cancer, an eating disorder, or if she's using drugs................she said no to all of my choices.
She's lying.
I feel helpless.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
please learn the 1st time
It's been 7 weeks since son was hit while riding his motorcycle.
He was released this week to go back to work...............and is walking some of the time without his crutches.
I love him.
I'm mad at him.
He's thinking about getting another bike.
He was released this week to go back to work...............and is walking some of the time without his crutches.
I love him.
I'm mad at him.
He's thinking about getting another bike.
little treasures found, and my gift to the cheerleaders
Babydoll, and T-Ball I found in the yard where I tore down the ugly brick wall............and the skeleton cheerleaders I made to put in the gift bags. The white boxes have necklaces I made for the girls, and the flowered bags are filled with candy.
pond and mums
the fish pond is a work in progress. so don't laugh. brother-in-law has given me some plants to use to keep it clean. i've covered it with chicken wire to keep the coons out.
I've placed pots with Mums on my deck and on the front porch.
I think they're pretty. :O)
I've placed pots with Mums on my deck and on the front porch.
I think they're pretty. :O)
Sunday, September 20, 2009
yetanothermanmurderedhiswifeand5childrenmakesmesick
So the name of one of our local hospitals is Christ Hospital.
One of the doctors from Christ Hosp. called me at work the other day.
The new receptionist pages me and this is what she says......."Sandy, Christ is parked on line one. Christ is parked on line one." Cracked me up. :O)
The racoons stole the gold fish from my pond..........maybe it was an opossum, or perhaps the neighbors cat?
I've been doing lots of work around the yard the last week or so................when we knocked down the ugly brick wall that sat just below the front porch I found one of my sons official T-Balls........it was filthy.......looks brand new since I've cleaned it.............and while removing some old wood from under the side of the deck I found one of daughters dolls. It hair was filled with little pea size dirt balls. I've shampooed it numerous times..........it looks better but not too great.............and under the porch I found an old McDonalds happy meal toy.................................................................................at one time I had stored in my attic space boxes and boxes full of sons and daughters old toys. I packed away the ones loved most by the kids...........and all the stuff that held special meaning/memories for me.
All of the boxes were taken from my house and given to a thrift store without my permission.
So when I find a tea pot under the floor of daughters old backyard playhouse, or hotwheels in a suitcase in the crawl space off sons old bedroom......it thrills me.
I'm making gift bags for the girls that cheer on the squad with my daughter. Most of the mothers take a turn making gift bags for the girls for before a game, or they bring cold drinks or fruit for the girls for after a practice.
I like making the gift bags. I'm a dork I guess because I think it's fun to come up with cute ideas...................this year I've made each of the girls a necklace..............................................and a skeleton cheerleader magnet...........I'll take pictures..............they turned out really cute!
One of the doctors from Christ Hosp. called me at work the other day.
The new receptionist pages me and this is what she says......."Sandy, Christ is parked on line one. Christ is parked on line one." Cracked me up. :O)
The racoons stole the gold fish from my pond..........maybe it was an opossum, or perhaps the neighbors cat?
I've been doing lots of work around the yard the last week or so................when we knocked down the ugly brick wall that sat just below the front porch I found one of my sons official T-Balls........it was filthy.......looks brand new since I've cleaned it.............and while removing some old wood from under the side of the deck I found one of daughters dolls. It hair was filled with little pea size dirt balls. I've shampooed it numerous times..........it looks better but not too great.............and under the porch I found an old McDonalds happy meal toy.................................................................................at one time I had stored in my attic space boxes and boxes full of sons and daughters old toys. I packed away the ones loved most by the kids...........and all the stuff that held special meaning/memories for me.
All of the boxes were taken from my house and given to a thrift store without my permission.
So when I find a tea pot under the floor of daughters old backyard playhouse, or hotwheels in a suitcase in the crawl space off sons old bedroom......it thrills me.
I'm making gift bags for the girls that cheer on the squad with my daughter. Most of the mothers take a turn making gift bags for the girls for before a game, or they bring cold drinks or fruit for the girls for after a practice.
I like making the gift bags. I'm a dork I guess because I think it's fun to come up with cute ideas...................this year I've made each of the girls a necklace..............................................and a skeleton cheerleader magnet...........I'll take pictures..............they turned out really cute!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
thisworldisfuckedup
I'm trying to talk boyfriend in to going to Lowes with me to get daughters new vanity and toilet..........so far he is saying it's too early to be lifting all that heavy stuff (rolling my eyes)................................................................................................
I ordered daughters class ring.
It has the schools team name, and a picture of the mascot on the right side..........and then a magnaphone and pom pom with the year 2011 on the left side..............the stone is red since that's one of her school colors................and then I have her full name engraved on the inner side of the band..................she wanted a traditional ring......so it's what we got. I think it's going to be nice.
I ordered it from a company different than who the school is using. The EXACT same ring purchased through the school was $77.oo more than what I paid. So Yay!
The couch is calling my name. So I'll either nap away the day, or I'll shop, work in the bathroom, and work in the yard.
I ordered daughters class ring.
It has the schools team name, and a picture of the mascot on the right side..........and then a magnaphone and pom pom with the year 2011 on the left side..............the stone is red since that's one of her school colors................and then I have her full name engraved on the inner side of the band..................she wanted a traditional ring......so it's what we got. I think it's going to be nice.
I ordered it from a company different than who the school is using. The EXACT same ring purchased through the school was $77.oo more than what I paid. So Yay!
The couch is calling my name. So I'll either nap away the day, or I'll shop, work in the bathroom, and work in the yard.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
dormgangrapeyalestudentfounddead&stuffedinwall
Today is my off day. So is tomorrow and the next day. So........Yay!
I worked 16 hours yesterday. Was supposed to work 12 but it was impossible to get it all finished without working extra hours.
So screw it. I'll probably be in trouble.
I had a meeting today at daughters school. I'll tell more about that at another time..................and then I had a quick insurance meeting at work.
When daughter got home from school she decided she wanted to return the dress we bought for her homecoming...............she says it's too tight......................so back to Dillards we went where she tried on another dozen dresses.............................found one she loves............it was $65 cheaper than the first dress. Needless to say I was thrilled.........................PLUS.......I actually like this dress. So.......yay!
I put in my fish pond. Really have know idea what I'm doing. I guess I'll learn as I go......right now it has 7 gold fish. I like watching them...........my brother-n-law has a great backyard pond. He told me to buy lilly pads for keeping the pond clean without having to use a filter. So I'll give it a try.
I've had this brick wall/ flower bed thing in my front yard just below my front porch. It's been there since I bought the house.
I hate it and always have hated it....................but for whatever reason have just lived with it.........until now.............I knocked that mother fucker down a few days ago..............had to dig for hours first............and then with ehlp from boyfriend.....down came the wall. WooHoo! Now I have to figure out what to do with the big, bare, ugly area......................................
Daughter finished painting her bathroom.............so hopefully in the next day or so boyfriend will help me put in the new vanity and toilet.
I worked 16 hours yesterday. Was supposed to work 12 but it was impossible to get it all finished without working extra hours.
So screw it. I'll probably be in trouble.
I had a meeting today at daughters school. I'll tell more about that at another time..................and then I had a quick insurance meeting at work.
When daughter got home from school she decided she wanted to return the dress we bought for her homecoming...............she says it's too tight......................so back to Dillards we went where she tried on another dozen dresses.............................found one she loves............it was $65 cheaper than the first dress. Needless to say I was thrilled.........................PLUS.......I actually like this dress. So.......yay!
I put in my fish pond. Really have know idea what I'm doing. I guess I'll learn as I go......right now it has 7 gold fish. I like watching them...........my brother-n-law has a great backyard pond. He told me to buy lilly pads for keeping the pond clean without having to use a filter. So I'll give it a try.
I've had this brick wall/ flower bed thing in my front yard just below my front porch. It's been there since I bought the house.
I hate it and always have hated it....................but for whatever reason have just lived with it.........until now.............I knocked that mother fucker down a few days ago..............had to dig for hours first............and then with ehlp from boyfriend.....down came the wall. WooHoo! Now I have to figure out what to do with the big, bare, ugly area......................................
Daughter finished painting her bathroom.............so hopefully in the next day or so boyfriend will help me put in the new vanity and toilet.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
sunnyday
Sears had a great sale yesterday.
Their yard gnomes, yard art, and yard decorations were marked way down AND they took an additional 50% 0ff the sale price................one of the items original price was 40 bucks. I got it for seven. The gnomes were marked down from 14.99 to 2.50. I bought two...............and then I got this metal cat originally priced at 24.00...........I got him for 6 bucks. I was lovin it!
Boyfriend and I took daughter to Dillards yesterday to shop for a Homecoming dress. She bought the most expensive dress in the store. I'm having a severe case of buyers remorse..................and to top it off I wish I atleast liked the dress.
When she tried the dress on she says to me "Now in this I feel beautiful!" After that comment, I didn't know how to say NO.
Boyfriend told me that our new neighbor complimented me on our deck. It really does look good since I stained it......so yay again!
I'm going to work in my yard today.
I think I'm going to put in a mini fish pond..........and I bought a bunch of mums yesterday. I need to get them planted.
I went to my sisters new house yesterday............it's the one next door to the house I'm waiting to buy......................they're not living in it yet.............just gutting and re-doing it............it looks great what they've done so far.
The lady living in "my" house is holding out.........she's not allowing her nephew to push her around. Good for her! He needs to back the fuck up and leave her the fuck alone. That's her house. That's her life. When she's dead or too demented to know better than to walk down the street naked........then he can take over.
It's been almost 10 weeks since I quit smoking.
13 days after quitting smoking I was able to come off my blood pressure medicine.
Between the cost of the cigarettes, and the 50 bucks per month for the blood pressure medicine, I'm saving a fortune.
I dreamt the other night that I was smoking a cigarette.......and I was enjoying that mother fucker........I think it's typical for quitters to dream they're smoking. I wonder if it's typical for people who quit smoking to start cursing. It seems to be my new habit.........it's tacky when people curse and talk the way I've been doing................but I have to tell you it feels so good..............so for now, it's what I'll do.
Their yard gnomes, yard art, and yard decorations were marked way down AND they took an additional 50% 0ff the sale price................one of the items original price was 40 bucks. I got it for seven. The gnomes were marked down from 14.99 to 2.50. I bought two...............and then I got this metal cat originally priced at 24.00...........I got him for 6 bucks. I was lovin it!
Boyfriend and I took daughter to Dillards yesterday to shop for a Homecoming dress. She bought the most expensive dress in the store. I'm having a severe case of buyers remorse..................and to top it off I wish I atleast liked the dress.
When she tried the dress on she says to me "Now in this I feel beautiful!" After that comment, I didn't know how to say NO.
Boyfriend told me that our new neighbor complimented me on our deck. It really does look good since I stained it......so yay again!
I'm going to work in my yard today.
I think I'm going to put in a mini fish pond..........and I bought a bunch of mums yesterday. I need to get them planted.
I went to my sisters new house yesterday............it's the one next door to the house I'm waiting to buy......................they're not living in it yet.............just gutting and re-doing it............it looks great what they've done so far.
The lady living in "my" house is holding out.........she's not allowing her nephew to push her around. Good for her! He needs to back the fuck up and leave her the fuck alone. That's her house. That's her life. When she's dead or too demented to know better than to walk down the street naked........then he can take over.
It's been almost 10 weeks since I quit smoking.
13 days after quitting smoking I was able to come off my blood pressure medicine.
Between the cost of the cigarettes, and the 50 bucks per month for the blood pressure medicine, I'm saving a fortune.
I dreamt the other night that I was smoking a cigarette.......and I was enjoying that mother fucker........I think it's typical for quitters to dream they're smoking. I wonder if it's typical for people who quit smoking to start cursing. It seems to be my new habit.........it's tacky when people curse and talk the way I've been doing................but I have to tell you it feels so good..............so for now, it's what I'll do.
Friday, September 11, 2009
friday
My side door is on and it looks good. So yay!
Boyfriend is back from Denver.......
This week I've had to buy daughters cheerleading pictures, class ring, junior class pictures.........................still have to buy her homecoming dress which is in 2 weeks............and school fees are due...........................................................is it legal for public schools to charge a school fee? I thought we paid taxes to support the public schools.
I got a parking ticket a couple days ago at work.
I've paRKED in the same parking spot, for the most part, for the past 9 years without a problem............until now.
My breasts hurt.
A couple weeks after stopping smoking my doctor discontinued my blood pressure medicine.
I don't need it anymore.................it had a diuretic in it which prevented breast soreness when I was PMS.
Well without the medicine my breasts feel full, and sore. I guess I'm weird cause I like the way it feels.
Boyfriend is back from Denver.......
This week I've had to buy daughters cheerleading pictures, class ring, junior class pictures.........................still have to buy her homecoming dress which is in 2 weeks............and school fees are due...........................................................is it legal for public schools to charge a school fee? I thought we paid taxes to support the public schools.
I got a parking ticket a couple days ago at work.
I've paRKED in the same parking spot, for the most part, for the past 9 years without a problem............until now.
My breasts hurt.
A couple weeks after stopping smoking my doctor discontinued my blood pressure medicine.
I don't need it anymore.................it had a diuretic in it which prevented breast soreness when I was PMS.
Well without the medicine my breasts feel full, and sore. I guess I'm weird cause I like the way it feels.
Monday, September 07, 2009
monday
It's raining in Ky. It hasn't rained here since I water proofed/stained the deck. I went outside to check it out. The water was in beads......... so the water proofing is working. :O)
I'm off work for the next 3 days. A benefit for the 12 hour shifts..........which usually end up turning into 14 hour shifts.............but anyway, 3 days off.........so I'm happy.
Boyfriend is in Denver and has been for several days. He's visiting his family. I know he was missing his grown sons. He should visit them more often.
We-Ping was aggressive with me this morning. She bit my leg. I actually bled. The only reason for her aggression that I can think of is that she misses boyfriend. He spoils her........feeds her like a pig.......and they nap together. Little fuckers.
Oldest son promised me he'd put up my new side screen door today.
If he doesn't get to it, I'm going to start charging him money to live here..............
Boyfriend had mentioned several times me going to the grave to visit my dead best friend. I like going to graveyards to see the old graves........I don't like going to see graves of people I love..............but boyfriend kept bringing it up.....................It hit me that boyfriend thought my depression may have had something to do with Chuck dying...........it doesn't...........but I'm sure it's what he was thinking.........and maybe he thought that visiting Chucks grave would some how help me.................... I'm sure he's feeling a little helpless & grasping at straws............so we went to the graveyard last week............I was a little saddened to find that my friend doesn't have a headstone..................and I'm about 99% sure his family has no intentions of getting him one. He deserves one. He was a part of this earth..............
He'd get me one. I'll get him one.
I'm tired and am going to take a nap now. Goodnight.
I'm off work for the next 3 days. A benefit for the 12 hour shifts..........which usually end up turning into 14 hour shifts.............but anyway, 3 days off.........so I'm happy.
Boyfriend is in Denver and has been for several days. He's visiting his family. I know he was missing his grown sons. He should visit them more often.
We-Ping was aggressive with me this morning. She bit my leg. I actually bled. The only reason for her aggression that I can think of is that she misses boyfriend. He spoils her........feeds her like a pig.......and they nap together. Little fuckers.
Oldest son promised me he'd put up my new side screen door today.
If he doesn't get to it, I'm going to start charging him money to live here..............
Boyfriend had mentioned several times me going to the grave to visit my dead best friend. I like going to graveyards to see the old graves........I don't like going to see graves of people I love..............but boyfriend kept bringing it up.....................It hit me that boyfriend thought my depression may have had something to do with Chuck dying...........it doesn't...........but I'm sure it's what he was thinking.........and maybe he thought that visiting Chucks grave would some how help me.................... I'm sure he's feeling a little helpless & grasping at straws............so we went to the graveyard last week............I was a little saddened to find that my friend doesn't have a headstone..................and I'm about 99% sure his family has no intentions of getting him one. He deserves one. He was a part of this earth..............
He'd get me one. I'll get him one.
I'm tired and am going to take a nap now. Goodnight.
Monday, August 31, 2009
monday
I finally finished water proofing/staining the deck. It looks way good. So YAY!
Oldest son is on vacation this week........I'm kind of hoping that he'll hang the new shutters I bought...........there's only 6.......how long could it take?............and I'm also hoping he'll hang the new kitchen screen door. I bought a cheap one last summer.......it fell apart.........I invested in a more expensive one.........hopefully son will hang it for me.
I told daughter that she needs to paint her bathroom. I put on the first coat. I explained to her that I'm tired and won't be doing the second coat.
After finishing the deck I worked around the yard for a couple hours..................felt good to be up and about again.................I don't know if it's the medicine the doctor has me on, or if i'm through with physical withdrawl.........but i'm starting to feel more like a normal person.
Oldest son is on vacation this week........I'm kind of hoping that he'll hang the new shutters I bought...........there's only 6.......how long could it take?............and I'm also hoping he'll hang the new kitchen screen door. I bought a cheap one last summer.......it fell apart.........I invested in a more expensive one.........hopefully son will hang it for me.
I told daughter that she needs to paint her bathroom. I put on the first coat. I explained to her that I'm tired and won't be doing the second coat.
After finishing the deck I worked around the yard for a couple hours..................felt good to be up and about again.................I don't know if it's the medicine the doctor has me on, or if i'm through with physical withdrawl.........but i'm starting to feel more like a normal person.
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